Im not usually one to bitch about stuff. Iusually pride myself in being the one to see the brighter side of things, and I almost always have a smile on my face, but lately, since August specifically, I've been really frustrated and upset. I don't know if its because of my thesis or what, but things that normally wouldn't bother me are really starting to make me upset.
The biggest one is romance. I have had zero romance since my big break up over the summer. No rebound boy. No fun little casual dates. Zilch. Nada. Zip. This is really starting to make me doubt myself. I know 7 months isn't that long, but fuck...I'm lonely. I adore my best friend Matthew, dearly, but its not the same. I want long intelligent conversations while cuddling naked under the sheets. I want snowball fights and cooking together and someone to hold my hand while we're looking at paintings. I've tried being bolder, but I think that just scares guys off. I've gotten no responses from guys online, and the guys in person just look at me weird. Mom says I should just give up, because that's when they always come along, but yeah, no good at that whole 'calling it quits' thing. Oh well. I guess I'll just pour my angst into my art.
Speaking of angsty art, Edward Munch is going to be showing at MoMA. For those of you who arent quite familiar with him, he did 'the Scream.' I'm SUPER excited because he's my FAVORITE artists in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD. I didnt like him until last summer, but I guess something just clicked and made me go, "Wow.' I've only seen two of his paintings in person, and I was planning on going to Oslo, Sweden this summer just to see the museum of his work there, but now I get to see a bunch right here in New York!!! Hooray! If anyone wants to go with me, I make a great tour guide, as I go to some sort of gallery/art museum every week, and I'm a wealth of random and useless information. I plan to go multiple times (I saw the Redon show 12 times...kind of geeky...kind of pathetic...whatever. fuck you i love that stuff). So yeah. Hooray.
The biggest one is romance. I have had zero romance since my big break up over the summer. No rebound boy. No fun little casual dates. Zilch. Nada. Zip. This is really starting to make me doubt myself. I know 7 months isn't that long, but fuck...I'm lonely. I adore my best friend Matthew, dearly, but its not the same. I want long intelligent conversations while cuddling naked under the sheets. I want snowball fights and cooking together and someone to hold my hand while we're looking at paintings. I've tried being bolder, but I think that just scares guys off. I've gotten no responses from guys online, and the guys in person just look at me weird. Mom says I should just give up, because that's when they always come along, but yeah, no good at that whole 'calling it quits' thing. Oh well. I guess I'll just pour my angst into my art.
Speaking of angsty art, Edward Munch is going to be showing at MoMA. For those of you who arent quite familiar with him, he did 'the Scream.' I'm SUPER excited because he's my FAVORITE artists in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD. I didnt like him until last summer, but I guess something just clicked and made me go, "Wow.' I've only seen two of his paintings in person, and I was planning on going to Oslo, Sweden this summer just to see the museum of his work there, but now I get to see a bunch right here in New York!!! Hooray! If anyone wants to go with me, I make a great tour guide, as I go to some sort of gallery/art museum every week, and I'm a wealth of random and useless information. I plan to go multiple times (I saw the Redon show 12 times...kind of geeky...kind of pathetic...whatever. fuck you i love that stuff). So yeah. Hooray.
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panthro:
yer in trouble now! hahaha
abstraction:
I'm sure you'll find someone you're an interesting & kind person ...& I completely agree w/your mom on this...at least in my life that's been my experience, I do sort of believe that when you look too hard then you either attract the wrong kind of guys or your disapointed because the guys you meet don't meet your expectation...& in my life when I haven't been searching, it seems like things fall into place much easier. And I do the random art facts & "tour guide" thing too 