amberjoy

stupid men......GRRRRRR.......they are really starting to piss me off lately!!!!! it just seems that all the men i meet are all the same.......they just want in my pants, and when i call them on it they get pissed off!!!! so when i say no they get mad too!!!! or they try to blame me for the whole thing.....its just ridiculous. so if your reading this your probably thinking "whats this outburst for?" well if you read some of my previous blogs i had went out on a date with this guy, well we went out on 2, so on the second date, we ended up fooling around for a bit, no big deal, but i got kind of uncomfortable so i ended up putting my shirt back on, and immediately after that he went to the washroom, sounds pretty clear that he was mad b/c i was clearly not gonna let him into my pants. and then we talked today, and he said that he didnt feel it with me, i feel the same way, so no problem there, but he's one of those ppl that tries to assume that you feel a certain way, like he tried to tell me im scared or some bullshit like that. this whole thing isnt making any sense now....what im trying to say is that im just done with men all together right now. i dont wanna date any, i dont wanna fuck any, i just wanna keep the guy friends ive got now and keep it that way, thank god they are good to me or else i would shoot all of them!!!! i guess its time for me to try dating or doing stuff with chicks. i know its not gonna be much better, that i know of, im not expecting girls to be like a million times better then guys, but i guess i just wanna explore that part of myself, still havent been with a woman yet, so i wanna get out there and figure out that part of me, its been almost a year since i "came out" so ive already taken the first step, now i just gotta get out there and figure out what i like and what i dont like.