doctors this morning... no weight gain. finally met the doctor i have heard so much about. what a sweet heart. It was soothing to hear her tell me she was proud of me and i am doing excellent. its like a competition being pregnant. everyone is all worried about how much weight u gain and how many stretch marks you have got. Its kinda sickening.
i have gained almost 35 pounds.. haha.. i feel huge but i am healthy. as i have posted b4 about my issues with eating... they consider me bulemic, but i seldom make myself sick. it just has been years and years of addiction with diet pills...so i knew the weight gain would be drastic...so i am dealing with it. there are those days that i feel i am losing everything, but overall the fact that i am going to be holding a perfect baby boy in 1 1/2 months is enough motivation to make me stop! i can honestly say, i have not had one diet pill in 8 months... which is amazing... i think the longest i have ever gone was a month... i feel so strong these days.(mentally) physically is another story... i hate having to ask for help..... ugh....
but i did get my crib up and changing table, dresser is being put in today
yeah finally i can start getting things in order. its the capricorn in me that makes me umm anal...baby shower next week... then shopping spree for everything i need afterward... then vacation... so i can get everything in its place...........
love life....
i ran into a guy i dated when i was 24. ( 5 years ago). we dated for about 3 weeks.. haha.. it was after a really bad breakup so i ran b4 i could let him even get to know me.. it was kinda bizarre. i have not seen him since then. weve spoke once in 5 years. he wants to hang out and get to know eachother. part of me wants to run. and i have been avoiding hanging out.. i am so set on the type of guy i am looking for i cant let anyone in... this guy is a sweetheart, older, nice looking, drug-free( doesn't smoke(phew)... but he dresses different than my style and he digs country... what is wrong with me??? am i shallow without even really being aware of it?
is it wrong for me to run because he likes cowboy boots?????
i am starting to think this is all part of the wall i have built so i wont get hurt.... advice please?
work,
oh my money rolling in...
i was up 25% for the week due to the power outage! my feet are not thankful but looking at it as a business perspective... fuck ya!
it brought me up 13 % for the month,,,,
awesome!!!!! guess i hit my numbers this month!
unfortunally with the power outage we lost some food, and the whole equipment power thing( bill is based on when u use the most power in one year, so everything goes on at same time, i ran around turing shit off! hahaa)
the place was trashed but i must say customers were understandable and were willing to stand and wait! which never happens...\
blah blah.... time to get things done around here
i have gained almost 35 pounds.. haha.. i feel huge but i am healthy. as i have posted b4 about my issues with eating... they consider me bulemic, but i seldom make myself sick. it just has been years and years of addiction with diet pills...so i knew the weight gain would be drastic...so i am dealing with it. there are those days that i feel i am losing everything, but overall the fact that i am going to be holding a perfect baby boy in 1 1/2 months is enough motivation to make me stop! i can honestly say, i have not had one diet pill in 8 months... which is amazing... i think the longest i have ever gone was a month... i feel so strong these days.(mentally) physically is another story... i hate having to ask for help..... ugh....
but i did get my crib up and changing table, dresser is being put in today
yeah finally i can start getting things in order. its the capricorn in me that makes me umm anal...baby shower next week... then shopping spree for everything i need afterward... then vacation... so i can get everything in its place...........
love life....
i ran into a guy i dated when i was 24. ( 5 years ago). we dated for about 3 weeks.. haha.. it was after a really bad breakup so i ran b4 i could let him even get to know me.. it was kinda bizarre. i have not seen him since then. weve spoke once in 5 years. he wants to hang out and get to know eachother. part of me wants to run. and i have been avoiding hanging out.. i am so set on the type of guy i am looking for i cant let anyone in... this guy is a sweetheart, older, nice looking, drug-free( doesn't smoke(phew)... but he dresses different than my style and he digs country... what is wrong with me??? am i shallow without even really being aware of it?
is it wrong for me to run because he likes cowboy boots?????
i am starting to think this is all part of the wall i have built so i wont get hurt.... advice please?
work,
oh my money rolling in...
i was up 25% for the week due to the power outage! my feet are not thankful but looking at it as a business perspective... fuck ya!
it brought me up 13 % for the month,,,,
awesome!!!!! guess i hit my numbers this month!
unfortunally with the power outage we lost some food, and the whole equipment power thing( bill is based on when u use the most power in one year, so everything goes on at same time, i ran around turing shit off! hahaa)
the place was trashed but i must say customers were understandable and were willing to stand and wait! which never happens...\
blah blah.... time to get things done around here
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
as for thoughts on the cowboy, call me and i'll try to give you the best advice i can, but i want to actually know the deal a bit more. i just want you to be happy, and if you get involved with another douchebag, i'll drop a truck on them.