ambergarnet

day off from work, well deserved i may add!
I have a project that needs to be done by tom. I am making a dress for a friend for a ball. So far it looks fantastic( im actually impressed with my work) I have to make a purse and a scarf to go with it, I will get pics for bragging rights,
I also have to blankets to make for next week, one of the ladies that work for me has a grandchild ( less than one year old) that has cancer and is undergoing a transplant this week) so im making a blanket for her to got to th hospital with. The thought of this brings tears to my eyes, things like this make me worry so badly about the child i carry. I have been told that all pregnant women are over parionoid. if i drink this , will this happen, if i do that... blah blah...... i am now 28 weeks. I am so excited, nervous, and impatient, i look forward to seeing my son....
possible names are ivan alexander
or brenden michael,
ryan likes brenden so we shall see,
we have been hanging out and getting to know eachother again,
high school friends tend to grow apart,
my problem is that for some reason i have the school girl mentality. when we started dating i had those cheesy butterflies in my stomach and i had hoped he would be something/ someone that would be complete me. we are taking things slow right now and are jsut friends. its tough considering there are feelings but neither of us will jump and were taking it one day at a time.
part of me wants to jump and see if we can be everything that i dreamed of. at least i would know, and the other part of me wants to say fuck waiting move on.
my heart tells me to wait. follow ur heart is what i often am told... idk...
regardless of what the past has been , he is a good guy,
words that he has spoken prior were out of fear.

anyways,
overall life is going well