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Monday Nov 07, 2005

Nov 7, 2005
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ugh i so depressed today.
yesterday and the day before.
i have forced myself to leave my bed, and i cant stop crying.
i have issues
i haven't been able to figure out if it is hormones or if it is just because i am so sick of my life.

lets see i hang out with a guy that supposibly has like dme forever. we start "hanging out" treating it like a elementary relationship we hang out for about 5 weeks and then we finally have sex.
2 days later he freaks out and says that he is scared and that having sex meant it was going to a level he was afraid to take it. he is afraid to be in a realtionship because it has been so long. he says he wants to hang out and be friends and hopefully soon he can grow up and give me hat i need...
what does that mean?????
is that a guys way of saying im not interested but trying not to get a girl upset.????
so i get pissed, i try so hard to not allow my emotions to get in the way, but its kinda tough.
so now i call him and were supposed to be friends, but i am confused. i called him today and left a voicemail. i guess this will be my last attempt of giving him the benefit of the doubt. then i will erase him like i have erased the rest.
i am so sick of assholes fucking with me, why do i let them in, i just want a nice guy that will commit to me and respect me are there anymore men out there that want just one women forever....
ugh skull
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
hey_fukko:
Oh geeze, fourteen years is a very long time. You'd think you knew someone after that much time. Stay strong! I'm sure your Prince Charming is right around the corner.
Nov 8, 2005
scott:
i still have all the stuff you gave me too. your past is a part of who you are and memories are all that we posess. life is far too short to sacrifice blocks of it [good or bad] to erasure. i'm sorry things are rough with this guy. when i peeked in your journal a while back, i was honestly happy for you, he sounded promising anyway.

like i have told you time and time again, you have to be patient. you're a terrific lady and you deserve more than backflips and mindgames, but you jump into things with blinders on [in the case of our relationship both of us did it] just be careful, i hate to see you sad and frustrated.
Nov 9, 2005

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