amanita

A WARNING ABOUT DEPO PROVERA!


So I've been dealing with awful back pain for about a year now, being on pain meds every day. Doing tons of tests, mri's, blood work, a thousand different doctors and no one can figure out what the problem is. Most of the doctors don't even believe me when they are pushing on my back and watching me cry. It's really awful to think someone is just sitting there while you are in pain and all they can think is that you are a liar and you just want pain pills. I was doing physical therapy for about a month and things started to get better, I had to quit my job because it was too much pain but for a while it seemed like I could fix this problem. Then in august when I went on vacation things got horribly worse. I thought it was just from being in the car and over exerting myself but it's been a couple of months and the pain has maintained. It really has ruined the last year of my life. I can't do anything any more. Pretty much feeling helpless, I have to ask my parents or friends to pick things up for me when I drop them, carry things for me that are over ten pounds. I can't even get on the floor to play with my dog because it is too much trouble to get back up. I used to be so active, riding horses, dancing, swim team but it was all taken away from me and it seems no matter how hard I work at getting better the opposite happens. I have had back problems since I was young, it runs in my family and got worse when I ended up with E's on my 125 lb body. I thought surly I was just hurting worse now because of genetics, my boobs, and being so active that I just did too much damage at some point. When this pain got so bad last december, my boyfriend carried me down stairs after I picked him up from work and all I could do was lay there. We finally went to the ER and the Doc there said it was just a muscle spasm, gave me a couple prescriptions and said it would go away in a week at most. Well it's now october of the next year and since vacation it has only gotten worse. I've had two MRI's both with unremarkable results and the doc's don't know what else to do. I feel so trapped in my body. I watch my friends having fun at concerts or on the floor playing with me dog. I know they sleep well at night because they aren't laying there with the pain being the only thing on their mind. It is so debilitating I'm like a 70 year old. In fact my 78 granddad moves better than i do. It has done so much mental damage to, putting so much pressure on my close relationships with people and it's not fair to them either. Sorry, I shouldn't have spent so much time bitching but I know so many of you out there know what I'm talking about and you should know you aren't alone. Just as I would like to know.

The point of the story is that I was looking up depo last night to make sure of the date I should get my next shot and I found this story of a woman with the same symptoms as me. This is the only account of such that I could find. Back pain isn't listed as side effects on any information site about depo but I found this and a woman asking about her back pain possibly being related to depo on Yahoo! Answers and I told her the same that I am telling you here. Woman's account of depo causing her back pain

After I found that article I put the dates together of when i started and how the pain was at certain points. I had my last shot in december of '08 and the time I was saying I started feeling better, going to therapy and such was around march so the shot was working it's way out of my system at that time. Then of course the day that we left for vacation I got the shot again. It would totally explain why I haven't recovered from the car ride and why it's just gotten worse. I really hate this fact too. I LOVED depo, don't have to worry about it for 3 months, it's super cheap and no more periods. Not to mention it made my skin amazing. But I really am hoping this is the problem because no one else can figure out whats going on. I am mad at myself for having been the one that actually payed for the last year of hell in my life but I can't take it back now. I'm going to stop getting the shots and hope and pray to God that this is the answer. If it is then it has done major damage to my muscle and I'll have to start doing therapy and training again to build my core and strengthen by back.


So if you are having these symptoms and you think it may be related to the depo please talk to your doc IMMEDIATELY! No one else should have to go through what I have been through the last year. Absolute hell. Photo shoots were even hard for me, especially my first set here. It was done right after I visited the er.

Also, if you know anyone that has had these problems and have any information about it relating to depo and how they dealt with it I would really appreciate the information. Any type of knowledge about this other than that one lady's account would make me feel so much better.

I don't have time to proof read this so if some of it doesn't make sense, sorry. Have to go!

P.S. I'm not trying to make this a blog bitching about how shitty things are, I really am trying to help other women to avoid this and possibly get some help myself.

love, Amanita