Do you ever get that overwhelming feeling that you just can't feel content, no matter how well things are going for you?
It's like x-factor is going great, and y-factor is showing real promise, but the sum of the two still leave you feeling blah. Maybe it's a touch of depression, or maybe it's just coming down from one of the happiest weeks I've had in a long time.
In the kinky community, they have something known as "Top drop", it's when you exert so much thought and effort into making a play scene go in the direction it's expected to go. While you're in the middle of your scene you tend to get pretty high from the adrenaline, eventually the scene ends and the adrenaline just wears off. You crash, just like a drug. You were feeling so good and happy just an hour ago, and now feeling normal sucks. I don't always take that part of my lifestyle very well. It tends to put me off kilter for three or four days afterward.
I suppose it could also just be stress I'm feeling. I have a new friendship that I want to keep secure, and there's great deal of pressure to be ready for Folsom.
Fuck either way, I'm really needing to get over this funk
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Upcoming shows for me...
Sept 28th- Folsom street Fair - SF, CA
Oct 3rd-5th- Wicked Womyn- Seattle, WA
Oct 18th- Flirts Inc. sensual caning workshop- Seattle, WA
Nov 1st- Leather Alliance Vendor Fair- Portland, OR
Nov 15th- Wetspot Vendor Fair- Seattle, WA
Nov 23rd- Bizarre Bazaar- LA, CA
Feb- 13th-15th- Beat me in St. Louis- St. Louis, MO
It's like x-factor is going great, and y-factor is showing real promise, but the sum of the two still leave you feeling blah. Maybe it's a touch of depression, or maybe it's just coming down from one of the happiest weeks I've had in a long time.
In the kinky community, they have something known as "Top drop", it's when you exert so much thought and effort into making a play scene go in the direction it's expected to go. While you're in the middle of your scene you tend to get pretty high from the adrenaline, eventually the scene ends and the adrenaline just wears off. You crash, just like a drug. You were feeling so good and happy just an hour ago, and now feeling normal sucks. I don't always take that part of my lifestyle very well. It tends to put me off kilter for three or four days afterward.
I suppose it could also just be stress I'm feeling. I have a new friendship that I want to keep secure, and there's great deal of pressure to be ready for Folsom.
Fuck either way, I'm really needing to get over this funk
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Upcoming shows for me...
Sept 28th- Folsom street Fair - SF, CA
Oct 3rd-5th- Wicked Womyn- Seattle, WA
Oct 18th- Flirts Inc. sensual caning workshop- Seattle, WA
Nov 1st- Leather Alliance Vendor Fair- Portland, OR
Nov 15th- Wetspot Vendor Fair- Seattle, WA
Nov 23rd- Bizarre Bazaar- LA, CA
Feb- 13th-15th- Beat me in St. Louis- St. Louis, MO
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bye bye for now~xoxoxo
In any situation where you go into a heightened state like that, especially when directing massive amounts of energy toward another person, it's very important to ground yourself afterward. It's also nice if you can include that into part of the whole ritual with your partner, you know? That's what I find, anyway. Avoids the whole funk thing.