Pardon me being so emo lately...
It's inevitably taking a bit of adjustment, getting used to being single. It is at times thoroughly awesome and I truly love living on my own. On the other hand it's a bit rough trying to readjust your vision of how your life should be. I don't know what I want anymore, and I know I'm the only one... Read More
Man. For a day that started with me waking up at 4AM again, sitting in the dark crying for an hour, then getting up and crying some more... this turned out to be a really awesome day. Suffice it to say I'm feeling a bit less numb now.
The lyrics on karaoke songs with actual videos are always out of sync with the music, and the music usually doesn't sound anything at all like the original.
This AM's journal aside, I'm feeling a bit disturbed about a general numbness I've been feeling lately. Feeling a bit detached, for the most part, like maybe I've blown my limit of feeling for a while. I know I'm happy, I know I'm sad, but I can't physically feel the changes. I'm kind of anxious to get past that, I kinda pride myself on being... Read More
Oh man, you shoulda seen me the other night watching Crash for the second time. Even though I knew what was gonna happen to the little spanish girl I still turned on the waterworks like crazy.
It's snowing at my place, it's so amazingly freaking beautiful!! I'm sitting here "working from home", staring at the big fluffy flakes coming down, covering the trees and my beautiful, shiny pink bike. Haaaappy girl.
Yesterday, I submitted my first abstract for a conference in October. My very first one. I'm sorta terrified. Speaking for a large group of researchers (inevitably including Mr. Ex) is... Read More
Yesterday, I submitted my first abstract for a conference in October. My very first one. I'm sorta terrified. Speaking for a large group of researchers (inevitably including Mr. Ex) is a far cry from speaking to a few dozen people in unrelated fields. They can be pretty brutal with the questions afterwards. But it means I'd get to go to Montreal yet again and I'd be well on my way to true Rock Star status. Which, in a few years, could also mean Rock $tar $tatus.
This sounds absolutely facinating, although I have no idea what it means.
Yesterday was another one of those days waking up in a sour, sour mood. And then all day, one thing after another completely made me smile. And going to see Johnny Cash with Milo was an excellent ending to an awesome day.
So yeah, tiredness+fluxuating schedules doesn't do happy things for my mental state. I'm gonna see if I can actually manage to catch up on sleep again. Take a couple days and hide in my hidey-hole.
Somehow, I don't even know how it happened, I managed to get out of a craft store in spring without coming home with piles and piles of shit. Go me.... Read More
I don't think the 6th season of Buffy was a good choice right now. I forgot it was the depressing season. But I can't stop watching. Cathartic or something.
Low self-confidence moment, I'm feeling like I've been really selfish and inconsiderate lately. I'm having a hard time balancing taking care of my needs and being good to other people.
I AM: enjoying the cat's company and typing assistance
I WANT: to be here. Oh, and a delicious omlette.
I HAVE: a lot to be grateful for
I WISH: I would quit worrying about money
I HATE: dwelling on stressful things
I MISS: twitterpation
I FEAR: loneliness and... Read More
what is it with vans and that? I got clipped by a van on the freeway last summer (nowhere else to go, so I gunned it and she nipped my bumper). What's worse, they drove behind me for a lil while, followed me as I exited and pulled over, and then completely ignored me and drove right past. Doubt they had any clue they'd just hit someone and left the scene.
Plus Momma's taking me to see Missa Gaia!
I am so super psyched about spring break.
We are going to be up to p-town form the 27th-31st it looks like.
Wanna plan to make ou..I mean meet up