Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

alyssum

Eugene

Member Since 2002

Followers 66 Following 71

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Wednesday Jun 14, 2006

Jun 14, 2006
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
My friend may be coming to stay with me for the next couple days, starting tomorrow. On the one hand, I'm totally looking forward to girly time with her. On the other, it's kind of a reminder that I'm not where I want to be, because she is. She married her best friend since she was 5, she's got 2 beautiful kids, she's got a house and just got a job she's been striving for for years, which also happens to mean she'll get to spend more time with her baby.
I'm...in a tiny, shitty little apartment, living by myself.
Not that I don't see the value of this situation by what it's not and for what I'm learning, but it's most certainly not where I envisioned myself at 30 when I was a kid.

Oh and I'm really sleep-deprived and I don't think the antibiotics are working because I'm still in constant pain and my face is still numb.

Aren't I just sunshine and light today!
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
starisea:
Oh! *squish*

I'm so sorry that your head isn't feeling better, and it sounds like you have a nasty case of the "comparision blues". Lately, they come knocking on my door a lot too. (even though, deep down, I know that it is irrational) We need to go have a drink and expunge those blues, so feel better soon! (please.)

kiss
Jun 14, 2006
fallfromgrace:
I agree with the Strongmad. I have friends my age that have all that... the house, the kids, the spouse. What it means is they have the mortgage payments, no time to themselves, and well, marriage... I think you know the downsides to that.

Just remember that life just is. You aren't being graded, and there's no score. When you die no one is gonna say "well, they win because they had "X, Y, and Z".
Jun 14, 2006

More Blogs

  • 01.26.07
    7

    Friday Jan 26, 2007

    Wait, have people who were grey gone black? What the hell is that ab…
  • 01.23.07
    6

    Wednesday Jan 24, 2007

    Woo, I'm off to Seattle tomorrow! Excitement, adventure, secretive m…
  • 01.21.07
    2

    Sunday Jan 21, 2007

    The greatest part about hangovers is hurting as much physically as me…
  • 01.20.07
    8

    Sunday Jan 21, 2007

    It's not officially a company xmas party till you've had more booze t…
  • 01.19.07
    8

    Friday Jan 19, 2007

    Wanna make a group of hot 24-30 year-old women swoon? …
  • 01.16.07
    2

    Wednesday Jan 17, 2007

    I feel like one particular choice at work last year has made things a…
  • 01.16.07
    3

    Tuesday Jan 16, 2007

    Snow. Lots and lots of snow. And cold. I was so excited that the r…
  • 01.15.07
    7

    Monday Jan 15, 2007

    I've heard now from 3 different people this weekend, talking about ho…
  • 01.14.07
    1

    Sunday Jan 14, 2007

    I'm so happy that I have such good friends. This weekend's been stra…
  • 01.12.07
    5

    Saturday Jan 13, 2007

    I'm feeling right now like I'm trying to give up smoking or something…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

24
years
0
months
8
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,610 SuicideGirls
  • 0 followers
  • 14,975,089 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,522,884 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Complaint / Content Removal Policy | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo