HAPPY BIRTHDAY sofarsogood
Wish I was there with you, lovely!
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Last night/this morning I had the worst dreams I can remember in many years. True nightmares. The good (and bad) is that they were slightly Doctor Who-ish. But I woke up crying. 10mg of Melatonin sure can knock me the fuck out but I woke up at 5:30 after a nightmare and had another one until 7. Hopefully I don't need any tonight. I just need sleep.
After that, the day just kept getting worse. I was crying over EVERYTHING. I don't smoke pot, but I would have liked to have some today. Even if it just put me to sleep. Everything was wrong. For instance, my skin holds on to moisture reallllyyyyy well. So well in fact, that I need extra time for my skin to dry after a shower before I can put clothes on..... and I don't have a bedroom. I was so ready to lay down after my shower that I put my bra on too soon and it CUT ME. MY BRA CUT ME. Yup. That's how my day was.
I will say that thankfully an arylic popped off while drying my hands after washing dishes so I got to get my nails done. I had a different lady than usual. She did such a wonderful job. They're so short they're basically to my finger tips, little blue tips, all even, and she got to use my real nail bed so they shouldn't peel either. They look and FEEL so wonderful. Just long enough to comb through my hair and no more pulling.
All of this sounds so meaningless, I bet. But it was one of those days where a thousand little pieces of evil attacked my psyche relentlessly until I broke down completely. Butttttt Willy Wonka is on, I have cold, filtered water, and I've given up on this weekend. I'm not worried or excited about it. Nothing to even think about, I refuse. I DID have to cancel my hotel reservation though, no bed for me for xmas. And I'm too poor to even afford the $15 TARDIS pillow I found and put on my wishlist. I was gonna get myself something nice for how things have been going. Now I'm too poor to afford it seeing as I need to eat for 2 weeks until payday.
Things always get better though. I at least have new hot pink bras and new panties I ordered last month. I can't wait for a few days alone to wear them and nothing else and just REST. I guess its good though, right? No matter how bad my day was.... I still have the ability to see that life CAN AND WILL get better, along with the history to prove it.
I can't wait for the snow tonight.
Goodnight, SG.
xoxox Aly
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Also.... I FUCKING LOVE JOHN BARROWMAN! OMFG.
Captain Jack is my everything and I can't wait to start Torchwood.
But don't worry.... Ten is still my number one.
