alumapro

Soooo...Here i am in a pub in Lloydminister smashing gin's like they're going out of style like a Flock of Seaguls haircut. People all around, the waitress comes up to our table and asks if we need another round and i freeze...It has come to me that i am so totally bushed that the whole night i have hardly said one little word to our gorgeous server. At this point in time she stares at me with a blank look on her face, waiting for a reply. So i reply..."absolutskdhfhjsy" yes i totally fucked up my reply. It was almost like i was having a sad little anxiety attack. I have been at the pub with my roomate, a pilot and another friend from work also a pilot for almost three hours i have had a few drinks, and i havent said a word to fucken nobody! I just sat there nodding when i was asked if i wanted another gin. I was still polite at least that did'nt get ruined! Whenever i snuck out for a cigarette i held the doors and smiled and...stared blankly...idiot. I honestly think that this trip was a not only nice but a comlpete waste of time. I dont think i have ever had such a frustrating ten days in a row of work. My boss decided to reward me with a flight down to lloyd for the night with matt and ron (Pilots) and the boss and his fam.My boss and his wife who are both the owners of the company i work for. This was a chance to do a little shopping and what not, go out have a good time and such. Well that didnt really happen because i actually cant remember the last time i was out of the north...i should move back a little further south just to keep my sanity. Any ideas on what the fuck i should do? I feel like such a dolt. It was nice to see a lot of hot asses runnin around though, not to many of that up here lol!