Fuck it, let me lay it all out for ya... that's what this place is for, right?
I'm definitely on the verge... of what, I don't know. Sometimes I'm thinkin things are so right, but they really aren't... there's just more things to look forward to than ever.
First off, I quit my job as a cashier at Goodwill... after finally earning the rights to live how I want (taken for granted by most), I then became some sort of attraction and I ain't friggin reality TV ppl. So now I'm working none too fast on getting my ebay business goin and maybe my design site as well. I got like a month and a half before I panic. Oh yeah.. they're good ppl at Goodwill, they just drive me nuts.
Meanwhile, I'm kinda seeing this guy Todd who's like an older scarier gayer me. He was already getting into the business of buying and selling, so we're business partners in a sense. I think he's kinda piffed cuz he knows that the whole thing is more of a confrontational thing for me as well as the fact I just don't have the nerves to pursue women right now... so sue me I'm tryin to change my life for the better.
My former and best friend Laurel (I called her Lo in past posts) is there for me but she's dating a couple ppl... namely Jojenjo or whatever his name is, and yeah there's still a lot of desire for her, especially now that her maternal instincts are in check (oy). It had to come this far I guess, and I know she's experimenting with polyamory for my sake, but I can't handle it, so there's a flaw in her reasoning. I also know that I've pretty well outgrown my need for her, but I still have so many feelings (mixed for sure) and I really just want some closure.
Oh and I'm about to visit my family in about a week for Canadian Thanksgiving in the Eastern Townships... It should be fun but I didn't really leave for Cali on the best terms (though they recognize I had my reasons and I think they even respect me... whoah).
Just shoot me... hehe j/k
I'm definitely on the verge... of what, I don't know. Sometimes I'm thinkin things are so right, but they really aren't... there's just more things to look forward to than ever.
First off, I quit my job as a cashier at Goodwill... after finally earning the rights to live how I want (taken for granted by most), I then became some sort of attraction and I ain't friggin reality TV ppl. So now I'm working none too fast on getting my ebay business goin and maybe my design site as well. I got like a month and a half before I panic. Oh yeah.. they're good ppl at Goodwill, they just drive me nuts.
Meanwhile, I'm kinda seeing this guy Todd who's like an older scarier gayer me. He was already getting into the business of buying and selling, so we're business partners in a sense. I think he's kinda piffed cuz he knows that the whole thing is more of a confrontational thing for me as well as the fact I just don't have the nerves to pursue women right now... so sue me I'm tryin to change my life for the better.
My former and best friend Laurel (I called her Lo in past posts) is there for me but she's dating a couple ppl... namely Jojenjo or whatever his name is, and yeah there's still a lot of desire for her, especially now that her maternal instincts are in check (oy). It had to come this far I guess, and I know she's experimenting with polyamory for my sake, but I can't handle it, so there's a flaw in her reasoning. I also know that I've pretty well outgrown my need for her, but I still have so many feelings (mixed for sure) and I really just want some closure.
Oh and I'm about to visit my family in about a week for Canadian Thanksgiving in the Eastern Townships... It should be fun but I didn't really leave for Cali on the best terms (though they recognize I had my reasons and I think they even respect me... whoah).
Just shoot me... hehe j/k