altar

well its been a while since I left anything on here. Valentines day is coming up and Kristin is my valentine but I feel like she is gonna blow me off. I sent her a huge wrap of roses. and she once told me she has always wanted to go horse back riding so I am going to try to do that with her. I just feel like She doesnt deserve it some times. She treats me like shit. And it makes me feel like I couldnt do any better.
Im so misserable. And I hate life right now