altamedic

jesus i have been in one huge dark place in my life and soul i hope i never ever visit again. made me realize how lucky i really am having wonderful friends here on SG, and peope i know and can talk to in the real world. i promise to give a great blog here soon, but for now im going to share a dream i have been having for the last 4 months. This dream at least helped me keep my sanity while my world came crashing down around my feet:

I win the lottery. 32 million is my prize. wow, i wind up giving 1 mill to each of my parents, 1 mill to my sis and brother. 1 mill to my best friend here and her daughter, 1 mill to another close friend and her son, and 1 mill to a long time friend and her 2 daughters and 3 million to a charity ((this part changes each time)).

then it gets a bit strange, due to my shyness and such, i ask a couple of the suicide girls for a weekend get away in another country ((the country changes each time too)) i wont go naming the girls as there is 8 of them i would ask but only 2 at a time and they chang also in the dreams.

we have a great kick ass time somewhere where we laugh, dance ((and even inmy dreams i dance horribly!!! )) and have a great time.

then i have my dream house...the cost of the house is like 8 mill but its solar powered and wind power and such over looking mountians...and 2 vehicles. one for work and one for me..


and then i wake up...

screwed up dream eh??

kk bed time...later all