altamedic

well i guess its time to update this blog. Things are going ok here. having some up days and had a major down day the other day. the up is that i love my job, cant stand the politics here but im only here for a few years for the exp then off i go to somewhere better. and better money

the down day, well i had a lady here in this town who kinda knows me try to set me up with a single friend of hers. im thinking this is great. i am finally going to get out of the house and meet a new person. well a day before we were to meet i was told by my friend that her friend is bailing on me...when asked why, she would not say so i kept pressuring her until she finally told me that her friend was told i was really fat and well the only nice way to say it i was ugly. she told her friend that there was no fucking way she was going to be seen with a fat, fucking piece of shit and that she wanted nothing to do with me.

i am tired of this. this kind of things have really really gotten me down. i know people here are good to me and nice and always have good comments. but its just not the same when you need that face to face contact. i know i should not let this get to me, BUT i cant help it. i just finished going thru a mega depression session and i can feel myself falling into another...oh well i dont know

anyway, im outta here, hope to see you all in groups and such!!! take care everyone