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Monday Oct 15, 2007

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****edited today Oct 16/07
i just learned from another SG who i totally love Salome, wrote a great blog and it really really opened my eyes about Nana. if you get a chance go read her blog. i never realized how sick and twisted and perverted this Nana really was. i used a link on Salome's blog to see this Nana's facebook site and it sickened and disgusted me big time!! anyway. enuff said on this matter... hope i did not offend anyone during this drama***

okie time to update this blog. first things first. the new sg set thats up. im on the fence kinda on this set. first of all i DO NOT agree with the theme at all. i think it was thought of in very very poor taste, and shame on SG staff for posting it. On the other hand, the young lady is a very beautiful looking lady and if you take the first 10 pics away i think it was shot very well by the photographer. Like i said i dont agree with the theme but do think the lady is very attractive and the pics were shot very well. kk enough said on that.

*****edited: i know i put down i loved it on her set but that was before i acutally read what her theme was. i skipped the first 12 pics of her set also. i do feel shamed that i put i loved it when in reality i was not very impressed with her theme. i thought the pics were greatly shot and that she is a very beautiful looking lady. anyway i just wanted to clairify that*****



i quit my job. **sigh** again


ever since i left the one company i just dont seem to be happy or working at all. and its driving me nuts. i sat here this afternoon crying for like 2 hours **does this make me a lesser man?** i cant help it. my life has just colapsed around me totally and im struggling to get up and brush myself off, even though i dont want to brush myself off only cause im sure ill be right on down flat on my ass again.
i have been scaring myself big time with bad thoughts that keep roaming my head. i know that i would never hurt myself but damn why do i keep thinking of it??? the one thought that keeps going is me overdosing on my insulin. fuck. i dont know why i keep thinking it. its not in me to try something like that.

i have sent out resumes again and hoping that i get something. maybe ill just say screw the oilfield and go work at a grocery store for the winter and try to save up so i can take some new courses next spring. who knows.

i know i have been really really bad at trying to get to everyone and sending a mail saying hi and such. im sorry. i just dont have it in me right now.


i just dont have much left. i feel spent, empty, cold, i feel the darkness surrounding me. engulfing, sufficating. where is the light?


skull
Alta
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
chomper:
Hey hun it's good to hear from you I was worried about you I look forward to your message biggrin
*hugs* kiss kiss kiss
Oct 18, 2007
tatertots:
feel better! no saddies... smile
Oct 20, 2007

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