Depression. it totally sucks. once you get into a depression its very very hard toget out. everything seems to be impossible and you forget what happiness is. i know what this is like, because im acuatlly going thru it right now. this is the first time i have been this deep in a depression and it is scaring me. i have recieved good comments and words of encouragement and i know i can lean on those to help, but it seems hopeless. i find myself crying every night for hours. i just cant seem to help myself. i finally had a life plan and i wanted to get going on it, and now it looks as if it will not be happening. its almost like everytime i start to get ahead and going in my life in a good direction, i get this major obstical put in and i get sidetracked or even stopped. i cant even go to the mall anymore. i start to shake and i feel terrified. and i dont know what i wrong with me. i dont even like seeing couples walking around, it just reminds me how lonely i am. i can be in an arena with 20 000 people and i would still be alone.
sorry this is so depressing. ill try to make a happier one later.
on a happy parting note here: my sister gave birth to a baby girl last week! i am an uncle for the 4th time.
at least it made me smile for a bit.
cheers,
Alta
sorry this is so depressing. ill try to make a happier one later.
on a happy parting note here: my sister gave birth to a baby girl last week! i am an uncle for the 4th time.
at least it made me smile for a bit.
cheers,
Alta
bellica:
If she made you smile, even for a bit, then it's not hopeless, is it? Love ya hun, you'll get over the whole thing and start over, you're strong, hang in there!!! I'm here...