have u ever been scared?
no not the type of scared that you would go ha ha afterwards but the scared that seems to all the way down to your soul, scaring it like a hot iron against meat? the type of scared that you dont seem to ever want to sleep, eat or do really anything till that feeling goes away? the type of scared that its like someone not only walked over your grave but stopped on it to do an irish jig?
im feeling that right now. and i can tell you it sucks.
Never in my life have i felt fear like this. ever.
let me explain a bit here, as you know im a oil field medic. well about 4 weeks ago (1 monthish) i treated a young lady in a motor vehicle accident that i came across while enroute to my regular job. i treated her on scene till the regular ambulance arrived to take her to the hospital. now, it is proceedure for us to let the ambulance know who we are and such so incase they need more information they could get a hold of you. I got a phone call yesterday when i returned home. and that is when the fear started.
i had to go into the hospital today and get blood drawn, the reason: this young lady claims she has AIDS.
Fuck im crying again. god damn i feel so helpless!!!!!!
there was blood involved and such, im realy really sure i protected my self but i only single gloved myself not double or tripled gloved like i would have if i knew. Then again she could be lying just to put everyone thru all the tests and to freak us out. i dont know . sorry this blog is not happy but im just not into it right now.
i gues ill talk to you all later
have u ever been scared?
no not the type of scared that you would go ha ha afterwards but the scared that seems to all the way down to your soul, scaring it like a hot iron against meat? the type of scared that you dont seem to ever want to sleep, eat or do really anything till that feeling goes away? the type of scared that its like someone not only walked over your grave but stopped on it to do an irish jig?
im feeling that right now. and i can tell you it sucks.
and now , im crying
no not the type of scared that you would go ha ha afterwards but the scared that seems to all the way down to your soul, scaring it like a hot iron against meat? the type of scared that you dont seem to ever want to sleep, eat or do really anything till that feeling goes away? the type of scared that its like someone not only walked over your grave but stopped on it to do an irish jig?
im feeling that right now. and i can tell you it sucks.
Never in my life have i felt fear like this. ever.
let me explain a bit here, as you know im a oil field medic. well about 4 weeks ago (1 monthish) i treated a young lady in a motor vehicle accident that i came across while enroute to my regular job. i treated her on scene till the regular ambulance arrived to take her to the hospital. now, it is proceedure for us to let the ambulance know who we are and such so incase they need more information they could get a hold of you. I got a phone call yesterday when i returned home. and that is when the fear started.
i had to go into the hospital today and get blood drawn, the reason: this young lady claims she has AIDS.
Fuck im crying again. god damn i feel so helpless!!!!!!
there was blood involved and such, im realy really sure i protected my self but i only single gloved myself not double or tripled gloved like i would have if i knew. Then again she could be lying just to put everyone thru all the tests and to freak us out. i dont know . sorry this blog is not happy but im just not into it right now.
i gues ill talk to you all later
have u ever been scared?
no not the type of scared that you would go ha ha afterwards but the scared that seems to all the way down to your soul, scaring it like a hot iron against meat? the type of scared that you dont seem to ever want to sleep, eat or do really anything till that feeling goes away? the type of scared that its like someone not only walked over your grave but stopped on it to do an irish jig?
im feeling that right now. and i can tell you it sucks.
and now , im crying
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