Goood morning everyone!!! okie this blog will not be very organized ill be jumping around from topic to topic so PLEASE bare with me on this **grin**
**checks his checklist and starts to go thru it**
1. New Job - hmm cant say too much about this yet. its only day 2 but things seem pretty cool so far. Alot of reading up on procedures and stuff. But i think i should fit in okie with this crew. My pay dropped big time coming to this company (from 280/day to 225/day) but the stress has dropped big time too, and there is talk of getting job benifits too so i think it will help in the long run (my meds and supplies for my diabites is running me at about 465/month)
2. My personal life - shit where to start.......its pretty messed up right now honestly. I think the only good thing going right now is my "life" here with everyone in sg! i think i have been emerging myself into work more and more lately cause im acutally scared to face what little life i really have. Its extremely hard for me to go out (as i have posted before) and meet new people. at least here yes you see my pic but your not looking right at me so its not that hard to tell my real feelings (or flirt). Its kinda funny cause im extremely out going here at work and such but i am deep down inside i believe antisocial.
3. Groups - i have become EXTREMELY intrigued in the one group im in about big cuddly boys and that the fact there are women out there that want nude photos of guys who are "big and cuddly". it seems there are some times that i would not mind posting a pic or 2 of me there, but then this small voice pops up and screams at me not to be such a moron. Who knows maybe some day that little voice will go bye bye
4. Wieght - since alot of my self doubts and extremely low self esteme is from this i am happy to report im now down to 280lbs!!!! ((since you all dont know about this time last year i was about 350lbs, hence the happiness and why i have diabites). I still want to get to about 190 or 180 but thats still coming.
5. Stories - i got a email from a old friend the other day that i have not heard from in like 6 years. We jumped onto msn messenger and chatted for a few hours. it was great. she asked if i was still writing short erotic stories and i replyed no. I have not really been doing that cause i had no one (other than myself) to read them. She asked if i could start up (she seemed to really really enjoy them) so i might.it could be fun and give me something else to do with my time. and get me thru my daydreamin too LOL
well thats about it other than this last MOST IMPORTANT point:
6. Thanks - a huge huge huge huge huge thanks to all you ladies. i feel so damn speical whenever you post comments here and such. And speical thanks and hugs to Saveme and EjaqueMilkshake for your wonderful messages! every bit brightens my day more and more and more. If i could i would put you both on my desk and keep you forever!!!!!!!!
kk now that im done rambling im going to attempt (i hope it works) to put a song/music on this blog.
okie talk to you all later!!
*crumbles up the list and slowly walks away into the distance*
**checks his checklist and starts to go thru it**
1. New Job - hmm cant say too much about this yet. its only day 2 but things seem pretty cool so far. Alot of reading up on procedures and stuff. But i think i should fit in okie with this crew. My pay dropped big time coming to this company (from 280/day to 225/day) but the stress has dropped big time too, and there is talk of getting job benifits too so i think it will help in the long run (my meds and supplies for my diabites is running me at about 465/month)
2. My personal life - shit where to start.......its pretty messed up right now honestly. I think the only good thing going right now is my "life" here with everyone in sg! i think i have been emerging myself into work more and more lately cause im acutally scared to face what little life i really have. Its extremely hard for me to go out (as i have posted before) and meet new people. at least here yes you see my pic but your not looking right at me so its not that hard to tell my real feelings (or flirt). Its kinda funny cause im extremely out going here at work and such but i am deep down inside i believe antisocial.
3. Groups - i have become EXTREMELY intrigued in the one group im in about big cuddly boys and that the fact there are women out there that want nude photos of guys who are "big and cuddly". it seems there are some times that i would not mind posting a pic or 2 of me there, but then this small voice pops up and screams at me not to be such a moron. Who knows maybe some day that little voice will go bye bye
4. Wieght - since alot of my self doubts and extremely low self esteme is from this i am happy to report im now down to 280lbs!!!! ((since you all dont know about this time last year i was about 350lbs, hence the happiness and why i have diabites). I still want to get to about 190 or 180 but thats still coming.
5. Stories - i got a email from a old friend the other day that i have not heard from in like 6 years. We jumped onto msn messenger and chatted for a few hours. it was great. she asked if i was still writing short erotic stories and i replyed no. I have not really been doing that cause i had no one (other than myself) to read them. She asked if i could start up (she seemed to really really enjoy them) so i might.it could be fun and give me something else to do with my time. and get me thru my daydreamin too LOL
well thats about it other than this last MOST IMPORTANT point:
6. Thanks - a huge huge huge huge huge thanks to all you ladies. i feel so damn speical whenever you post comments here and such. And speical thanks and hugs to Saveme and EjaqueMilkshake for your wonderful messages! every bit brightens my day more and more and more. If i could i would put you both on my desk and keep you forever!!!!!!!!
kk now that im done rambling im going to attempt (i hope it works) to put a song/music on this blog.
okie talk to you all later!!
*crumbles up the list and slowly walks away into the distance*
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congrats on the continuing weight loss, and BCB and PSW are the best groups here. i'm so glad to have met you! you are always so sweet and i love it darlin.