Oh, yikes.
So I started things up with the ex just as my social life started happening again...uh oh. So I'm seeing other people, and I'm not willing to stop seeing other people, and he's not willing to see me if I'm seeing other people (even though we made it clear when things started that we weren't going for a relationship and I told him that I wasn't going to hold back on other opportunities, but those things tend to be forgotten when things get intense and you really want things to go a certain way). So I'm pretty sure I just hurt someone I care an awful lot about...but I'm not willing to put the rest of my life (and some tempting opportunities) on hold to pursue a relationship that didn't work and has major flaws.
To sum it up, I feel like a complete asshole. But being honest and upfront is the best fucking thing to be. I just wish I would never have started things again...but I knew I'd be thinking that when I started them. Loneliness is a bitch.
So I started things up with the ex just as my social life started happening again...uh oh. So I'm seeing other people, and I'm not willing to stop seeing other people, and he's not willing to see me if I'm seeing other people (even though we made it clear when things started that we weren't going for a relationship and I told him that I wasn't going to hold back on other opportunities, but those things tend to be forgotten when things get intense and you really want things to go a certain way). So I'm pretty sure I just hurt someone I care an awful lot about...but I'm not willing to put the rest of my life (and some tempting opportunities) on hold to pursue a relationship that didn't work and has major flaws.
To sum it up, I feel like a complete asshole. But being honest and upfront is the best fucking thing to be. I just wish I would never have started things again...but I knew I'd be thinking that when I started them. Loneliness is a bitch.
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and lonliness is a bitch.....but it's the only bitch that we have to live with.....that whole lack of social consciousness or cognition keeps us to ourselves....so don't let the inside be buried by others' perceptions/suppositions.
....not to be suggestive or anything