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Music is a dull noise in the background somewhere. I've got the fan going and I can hear the endless humming. The fidge clicks on and joins in with the fan. The clicking of the keyboard and swirling thoughts of what happened tonight....I'm drinking out of the pitcher and through the bottom I can see Bruce Lee fighting on the screen in front of me....
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Reasons why I hate my work:

It's meaningless. Tech support is not what I would call a spiritually uplifting carreer.

I don't want to turn out to be like the people I work with. It's not that they're bad people, quite the oppisite. It's just that these people are married to what they do. They live and breath work and I need something more to...
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Why do you write? Why in the world would I continue to put my thoughts and feeling to word? I'm not just talking about posting journal entries and board messages. Why do I write anything at all?

Who am I writing for? Am I telling a story or stating an opinion? Am I trying to amuse someone or am I trying to help them understand...
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Let's take a little trip back to the late eighties, there I am in my 'Don Johnson' jacket, pant legs rolled tight against my ankle just peddling my fat ass around the neighborhood. Miami Vice had the fashion industry by the balls and movies like "Gleaming the cube" had every adolesent boy kickflippin' and Tail-sliding all over town. I liked skateboarding but I was definitly...
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I'm staying in tonight. I'm watching TV and my mind keeps drifting back to the first time I saw The Running Man. I remember watching Schwarzenegger run through frame after frame, brutally slaughtering the futuristic gladitors. Only to find himself face to face with Justice incarnate. That's right, Jesse 'The Body". Arnold beats the hell out of him and stomps away to kill more...
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I found out yesterday that my mom got married in January to someone who cares for nothing but himself. I've mentioned this to people and they say to me, "She must live far if you're just finding out now."

"Nope," I say "she lives here in town.

They look at me funny. Then the light bulb appears above their head and they say "Aww, you...
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Have you ever laughed at things that you knew you shouldn't have laugh at?

When the movie Pulp Fiction first came out, my friend Rob and I went. There's the scene toward's the end where Travolta's character shoots the kid in the back seat in the face. We laughed out loud with tears steaming down our cheeks and no one else laughed in the whole...
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There are a lot of things in my life that I've been forced to accept over the past year;

People will not always be there for you when you think you need them most.

I am the only person I can always rely on.

There is such thing as unconditional love.

Hearts break just as sure as the sun rises in the east and sets...
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I'm not sure that I understand what's going on here... I live damn near in the center of Portland and I can only get 2 TV stations.

If I were a ConspiracyFreak, I would say it was 'The Man' trying to keep me uninformed to what he's been doin to the world.

Maybe I should pray for good reception; " OoOoOoOoHh, MightyJagerMonkey, Please bless my...
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"2nd & Burnside Sit-In" makes me proud to live in Portland today. I think it's the first Real protest that Portland has seen in decades. A lot of what happened here tonight was bullshit and some of it was way the fuck out of line.

ACID IS NOT OKAY TO THROW AT POLICE!!!

I called my Exgirlfriend tonight just to see how she was doing...
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