alpha_male

hello again.
Im back from SC. i flew back to philly from charlotte on sunday. the funeral was very nice. its amazing how many people RJ touched in his short lifetime.

now back to school. damn this sucks. well i just took my physics final this morning and bombed it. i can't seam to focus on anything like that anymore. i love math and sciences i dont see whats wrong. i knew it when my buddy mike was quizzing me on it this weekend, i new it last night while studying, why can't i remember a damn thing when it comes to the freaking test!?!?!?! hopefully i'll squeak by with a c but thats gonna be pullling at straws. now to study for my calc 3 final tomrrow and hope i dont do the same exact thing on that!

now with everything going on im even less inclined to do the monotonous bs that goes along with school. yes it is a means to an end but at the same time, why? We spend years of our life and some of those the best and most vital years sitting in a classroom wasting time doing repetitive crap that when and if we need to use it we can look it up and use it then. forcing people to memorize how to find the departure speed and angle of a projectile whose gained its velocity from a frictionless ramp with radius of 3 meters starting at a height of x is utter bull shit. there are plenty of formulas in the back of the book. hence why they are there! as a reference so when you do need them you know where to look to use them!

so i dont know what the hell im gonna do anymore. im just exhausted. mentally and physically exhausted.