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you can find me in the garden. Im waiting for you there. As time lifts, a speration, a rift. I follow it without hesitation. An old freind that never began and never ends. It uplifts. Lifting me, ever so slightly, for just a glimpse. A thick cloud that carries me. Strong and yet invisible. There are memories and wanting here, sadness and resolution, fading moments and desire. The rythmic open womb of silver night. Shadows cast upon green. mother. A light of mercy in the heat. I am spun around by fate. another landscape. I move it. It moves me. Through a mirror of nature and spirit mix. Around I turn and back to the ground I am again. A glimpse. Caverns archaic without need of revival. They are hear, for you to find them. A slick blade of grass presses against my cheek. mud and pain. Tiredness and madness, and compassion and grace. Dark halls of fears. A Light that can pentrate. I dance with the ground. It marries me in silence. There are greater things than this. It all has a place. embrace. Lift. Lift. lift. Together we form a landscape. stone walls and a staircase. of my design. outside. ouside. outside. molecules spiral. it is here I post the sign. "It is better child, that you enter through the gates."

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So, I closed my eyes and decided to write something in under a few minutes. Im tired, I havent been getting enough sleep lately, and Ive been working for long hours in the sun building a deck and porch. Im still in ridiculous amounts of pain every second of every da,a and it has far from taken it s toll, especially in a circle of compassionless individuals. I understand and love. forgiveness. understanding. freedom.