Disclaimer: What you are about to read is not a list of stories but how the spiritual realm and my being is interlinked and it's bloody ass long. I have listed them in subtopics for easy reading, along with pictures to give a better idea of what I have seen or experienced and to ease the boredom as well. I do hope that you enjoy this post. They may not be spooky and can be boring therefore proceed with caution. I do not know whether you find my experiences fascinating but meh still gonna type it out. @missy @rambo @bloghomework
When I was a baby/toddler:
When it comes down to the paranormal, I would have to say my experiences have started even before I started to have my first memories. I remember that once when I was in elementary school/primary school, at my uncle's funeral, aunt's husband, they were talking about how close I was to that uncle and somehow the topic lead to when I was 2.
We were living at my grandmother's house and at the time I had just started leaning how to speak and read. Every now and then I would be laughing by myself and I would tell my grandmother or parents that grandfather had came to visit. My mom was kind of freaked out but gotten used to it since it was a frequent occurrence and for some reason I was always a happy kid.
What's weird was that my grandfather passed before I turned two but for some reason I knew that it was him? Perhaps it was because he was the one who carried me around the house whenever I was awake as a baby.
I do think that sometimes that it has always been a life for a life kind of thing because many of my relatives say that even though I may not look like my grandfather, my personality is like his in many ways.
Shadow People:
I'm sure almost everyone has experiences with shadow people. The black figure at the corner of your eye and when you turn there isn't anyone there. There is actually an explanation for shadow people but this post is not about that, I don't mind explaining it to the best of my knowledge if you keep an open mind hahaha. So anyways I have always seen shadow people as a kid but back then what I usually see are black figures. However, at the moment whenever I see one I'm able to see colours and features. Kinda weird I think. Perhaps my next sub topic can explain why.
Lucid Dreaming, Deja Vus & Sensing Things:
I have always dreamt of things whenever I am asleep and unlike most people, I tend to experience all 5 senses whenever I'm in the dreamscape. Lucid dreaming is really nothing new to me, I realized that I can lucid dream at the age of 9, controlling the dream or pulling myself out of dreamscapes when it get incredibly scary. Because of this I do believe that there are past lives, as in some of my dreams I have gone back in time and learn about things, things that you dont even see on tv and history books but sadly I am not able to bring that knowledge back. Although there are times I am able to explain things that I have not learnt in books or in school. There I times when I even know how "I" died back then. Being shot or stabbed for example, the weird part is that I am able to feel the shape of the object and pain caused by the object even when I wake up, although it goes it does burn like a mother fucker.
So knowing that I can lucid dream, I have been having deja vus for as long as I can remember, at this point in time whenever I can't remember a dream I know that I'm going to have a deja vu. All I can remember is that something, someone or some place in my dream is either unfamiliar or that something will happen.
Why all the blabbering you ask? Well from other religions being able to have deja vus or lucid dream sort of mean that you are more connected to the spiritual realm. I can't really remember how I started having the ability but I can sense things every now and then. Although I am not able to see them but I can "see" and feel their presence, which gets stronger especially at night. I'm able to tell which gender and age they are and also what they are doing. Most of the time they are just staring but some do move about but the staring... *shivers* The feeling gets stronger especially in small rooms where energies are more compact. I tend to avoid places with heavy auras cause those are where their presences get stronger.
The Spirit That Followed:
This was from one of the houses prior to my current one. I was 16, it was during the holidays. I was playing Need for Speed: Carbon at that time. It was 3:33 Am. I caught wind in school that this specific time is the witching hour, where spirits are strongest. Being a coward back then, I had to pee but I had to walk past the living room to get to the toilet. It was dark but I could make out where the toilet is, so deciding not turn on the lights in the living room, I quickly got to the toilet to pee.
However the darkness outside the toilet was too much to bare. Since I had the lights in the toilet on, I decided to close the door. So after I was done, I washed my hands mind you, I opened the door and there she was! A little girl, pale skin, with bangs, in a tattered white dress and she was holding a teddy bear in her right hand. She was there clear as day just a for a second and she disappeared.
3 days later, again, I was playing Need for Speed: Carbon. I got really tired. During the loading screen ,I decided to lie down and rest for a bit but dozed off in the end. I wasn't sure about the time but in the middle of the night, I woke up and realized I forgot to turn off the lights, so my vision was extremely blurry since I had to wince my eyes. It was only then did I realized that someone was in bed with me.
I turned over and looked, although my sight was blurry, I could tell that there was an incredibly beautiful woman next to me. Her skin was white, her hair was white and long, even the dress she was in was white. Being really groggy I decided to give up my bed to her and headed to the couch to sleep, I even turned off the lights for her sleep better. It was only in the morning did my parents wake me up and asked why I was sleeping on the couch. I told them that there was a lady in my bed and it was only then did I realized what I saw. The experience was definitely weird and fascinating at the same time.
Know that this was slightly before I could sense things and these were the first experiences that I actually saw spirits right in front of me. I do believe that these two spirits belong to a single entity. Read on to see how our paths have crossed further on in my life.
Lastly, Sleep Paralysis:
I do have 3 spirits in my house but for some reason my father decided to help one of them "move on", with the help of a medium, and the one who "moved on" was the one who gave me sleep paralysis, 8 times. I can remember clearly how it all started and it was after when what happened in "The Spirit That Followed". The first experience really freaked me out, since it was a first experience who wouldn't freak out?
I remember clearly, I was in my mom's car while waiting for her to grab something from the house. I was getting sleepy and just before I dozed off my head was slammed towards the right and pressed into the headrest. I was literally struggling to move my body but I could only move my eyes. For some reason, the less I struggled, I could feel the pressure lift but with the slightest movement the force will return. I could clearly see my mom walk out of the house and towards the car. It was only when she reached for the door handle did my body regain control. I was breathing hard but not gasping but I didn't tell my mom about what happened because she and the paranormal don't mix well as she gets freaked out super easily.
I can list the next few experiences but this post will be super long and I don't want to bore you guys any further. Perhaps I could post another blog on my sleep paralysis chronicles. The spirit was the one whom I have mentioned in the previous sub-topic "The Spirit That Followed", I'm sure she was the one from my previous house since her presence feels the same. She changes her appearance depending on the situation. If she isn't giving me sleep paralysis she is in the form of a girl, about the age of 5-7, in her white tattered dress and neat bangs. She usually stares at me from behind while I'm sitting at the computer, from the hall way, in the middle of the night if I don't keep my door closed at night. During the sleep paralysis, she comes in a form of a beautiful woman. Funny thing is that although I have never seen her clearly, I could sense that she is absolutely stunning.
However with the spirit gone, I kind of feel a part of me is gone too. I'm a little upset with my dad for not asking for my permission before doing what he did and at the same I know that she is still trying to tell me something. Well I'm hoping that she hasn't gone away yet and partially I know she will return. Due to the fact that the medium said that 3 had three spirits in my home 1 female and 2 males. But there is another male and female spirit still lingering here every now and then, kind of like visitors but they only visit after 12Am.
So I'm keeping my fingers that the medium is a pile of doo doo and that my "friend" would visit again.
That's all from me! If you've read all way till the end, thank you baring with me! If you have read partially, thank you for reading! If you have skipped everything and end up reading only this, thanks! Hahaha Cya pretty peeps!
