Ok right time to start this off after such a long hiatus from a real blog. So to those who have been reading my recent blogs know that I've been hella busy with my school assignments. My verdict... FML!!! Haha Anyways I've been thinking about this issue since I was 15 it's about me and my personality to be honest. It's gonna be quite a long blog so buckle up and sit tight cause ummm... (Insert exciting stuff)
I'm going to try to put these in writing haha so here goes nothing. This has gone back to the only child thing again, yes I know I know, I've been talking bout this a few times but just bare with me.
Well my mom doesn't have any daughters, so I have to tag along with her on shopping trips which have brought me to admire women's clothing. Like you know how guys are always tits, ass, face, legs. For me it's face, hair, tits, ass, legs, clothing of choice for the day, accessories (shoes bags jewelry etc) and they say men can't dress well I've seen girls with clothing tastes that belongs to a geek stuck behind the computer using a pantium 2 processor made to go out for the first time. And yeh I'm a part time nerd as well Marvel FTW! Haha
So anyways I have caught myself checking out girls saying this in my head "Damn! Them pumps are sweet!" Or like "MmmHmm!!! Work that hair girl!" for some reason the fashion voice in my head belongs to a black fashion diva haha. The most beautiful clothing are always in the women's department, look how sweet these accessories are!
Took these when I was out shopping with the moms the other day
@pomorum this is for you
Then here is another thing that makes my manly side feel weird, I am really sensitive, no not the nether regions hahaha but my feelings. I get I "squeal" at really cute things, love listening to peoples' problems, romantic movies or sad things plays tunes with my heart strings, I'm super sensitive of other peeps feelings and the list goes on and on.
So by now I'm betting that you are thinking, "Where we you going with this Cc?" No I am not a cross dresser haha but just that this thing of mine is surprising to me already!
My man side is really weirded out cause he is this guy who doesn't mind getting his hands dirty, he even has a survival mode that I can switch to when in need cause I have this dark monster in me, I'll talk about this in another blog. Bugs don't phase me. I fix shit around the house oh have I mentioned befor, that I cook? Hey it's a manly thing ok? Ladies love a chief haha and my thought process is based on logic and though I do things based on feelings at times.
Still here? Death by boredom haha. So I'm really opening myself up right here right now. I ain't sure if I'm bi or not. This is totally weird for me cause watching gays make out or have sex is ummm kinda uncomfortable for me? I'm not homophobic cause I'm fine with what they do but just uncomfortable. But the thing is I'm totally fine with doing it, not that I've had sex with another guy before but I'm actually fine with it. Yes I've thought this through before haha.
But I would prefer a touch of a girl at any given time, cause girls are so soft and tender, well there's the toned slightly muscular girl which I don't mind either but I would totally chose a girl over guy anytime of the day. I do find guys sexy but I'm not considering having sex with another guy at all definitely with a girl but I wouldn't mind a guy. Very confusing right?
Please leave your thoughts on this cause I would love to know your opinion on this as I have this thing with me since I was 15. Anyways thank you so much for reading this. Just thought the death toll is going to soar today lol Death by boredom... I make myself laugh LOL
