ok this is stupid fun, but it makes me laugh hysterically every time i see it, so i figured i'd share!
me and mine as elves
oh god, thanksgiving is here, like i need another reason to stuff myself. but i'm really excited, nothing beats a delicious meal, plus we'll get to see friends we haven't seen in a while.
i've been kinda disappointed in myself lately. i've taken a break from modeling until i can get my weight back down to where i feel comfortable being in front of the camera. then of course i get this awesome offer. a well established photographer is shooting models and their tattoos for a book, the hard covers will be sold and the soft covers will be distributed to tattoo shops here in california. he really likes the eyes on my neck and wants to include me. what a great opportunity, especially for someone who isn't even trying to make a career out of modeling! but i had to be honest with him and tell him why i don't feel comfortable doing it now. he was more than happy to wait until early december for me, but i haven't lost a pound. oh well, maybe something else will come along... one day...
i'm also kinda worried about something. lately whenever i drink mixed drinks, i start getting overheated (i guess like hot flashes), my heart races, and i have trouble breathing. it usually lasts about twenty minutes or so, and i have to lay down or take a cold bath to make it go away. maybe it's the mix of alcohol and sugar? i don't drink sodas, either juice or sometimes red bull. hubby's really worried about it. i told him if i could just get some pot, i wouldn't drink so much (my life isn't exactly interesting enough to live sober). he always says yes, but whenever i want to buy some he says we don't have enough money. then he goes out and buys more alcohol. i shouldn't make it out to be his fault, but i could use a little support.
once something fun happens, i'll make sure to write a new entry. i don't really like it when people use their journals as a medium for constant bitching, i guess i just had to get some things off my chest. hopefully it won't be up for too long.
until next time...
me and mine as elves
oh god, thanksgiving is here, like i need another reason to stuff myself. but i'm really excited, nothing beats a delicious meal, plus we'll get to see friends we haven't seen in a while.
i've been kinda disappointed in myself lately. i've taken a break from modeling until i can get my weight back down to where i feel comfortable being in front of the camera. then of course i get this awesome offer. a well established photographer is shooting models and their tattoos for a book, the hard covers will be sold and the soft covers will be distributed to tattoo shops here in california. he really likes the eyes on my neck and wants to include me. what a great opportunity, especially for someone who isn't even trying to make a career out of modeling! but i had to be honest with him and tell him why i don't feel comfortable doing it now. he was more than happy to wait until early december for me, but i haven't lost a pound. oh well, maybe something else will come along... one day...
i'm also kinda worried about something. lately whenever i drink mixed drinks, i start getting overheated (i guess like hot flashes), my heart races, and i have trouble breathing. it usually lasts about twenty minutes or so, and i have to lay down or take a cold bath to make it go away. maybe it's the mix of alcohol and sugar? i don't drink sodas, either juice or sometimes red bull. hubby's really worried about it. i told him if i could just get some pot, i wouldn't drink so much (my life isn't exactly interesting enough to live sober). he always says yes, but whenever i want to buy some he says we don't have enough money. then he goes out and buys more alcohol. i shouldn't make it out to be his fault, but i could use a little support.
once something fun happens, i'll make sure to write a new entry. i don't really like it when people use their journals as a medium for constant bitching, i guess i just had to get some things off my chest. hopefully it won't be up for too long.
until next time...
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and second of all, friday should be fun =)
Cant wait to see you two!
I'm Thankful that i have a friend like you!
Stop being so down! I get that issue 2 with the fainting... I think its cause i'm about to throw up, it affects people differently, don't freak. AND YOUR OVER WEIGHT!!!!! STOP THAT BULLSHIZ!!!! And if you wanted to do something fun all you need to do is ask, and i'm musta up something exciting.