almightymabel

well i guess it's about time for another blog. why the hell not?

we've been in total hermit mode for the past couple weeks. don't really know why. we just get like that sometimes, i guess. it's actually kinda nice to just sit around and do nothing together. sometimes we get so busy socializing that it feels more like a "have to" instead of a "want to." maybe we just need to balance it a little better, i don't know.

i've got about three more photo shoots lined up in the next few weeks, and then i think i'm gonna take a little hiatus from modeling. not for long, but i need to get my body into shape before i do anything else, especially any shoots for sg (sorry, jordan, i'm gonna make you wait a little longer). i'm just tired of feeling nervous or uncomfortable about how i will look to the camera, and also about disappointing the photographers, like they expected someone skinnier. i've decided that just "losing weight" isn't what i need. my body is happy where it's at, and i need to respect that. besides, it really sucks trying to lose weight when technically you don't need to. it's much harder and you always gain it back. instead, i'm just going to focus on being more active in general and toning the area that needs working on. i've always been self-conscious about my stomach and love handles, and i'm sick of it. i want a flawless body just once before i get too old to be cute anymore!

wow, i thought i'd have more to write about, but apparently not. eh, it's late anyway. this bitch needs to go to bed before the construction crew next door wakes her ass up at 8! good night, my darlings!