And you thought the bunny was funny, check this shit out!
My friends kid who I got pancakes for at Mcdonalds cause I was starving and so were they. I said, "Hey it would be funny to put a pancake on his head, like the bunny."
So this beats the bunny by a fucken million.
More of something later. Way too tired and have school.
Wow, class was only 23 min. today. Rock! We have no class tomorrow cause its a lab day! WHOO
This weekend was loads of fun besides my break down.
Anyone can see from my past entrys the shit that is in my head. Just really really lonely and never get that bad, but seeing love in others life is fucken annoying when I have no one. I do not need a fucken leash though. I put up with that for 4 years and wish to not be with someone permanetley for another 3. ha ha ha
Even though one I wish so much to be with I will never be with since he is unattainable. So perfect and makes me feel so good. Very positive person! And I really need that, he helps me so much.
Weekend consisted of working,
, and having fun with friends.
Went to Bloodfeast III on saturday with Xcdat and Jimbo. Those guys are too funny! Xcdat bought me a drink again. he he I had only enough for the door and two drinks so that was nice. I saw only 4 bands or so cause I worked til 8:30. I only really liked G Strings who are from France. I loved seeing the bassist stand on the side of the upright bass and play it. Man thats so cool!
Most of them did that!
Then went to Vampirelust place to drink. Hung out then had to help out his friend which took hours cause of shite directions, my sleep deprived ass, and not knowing that the one road we went on then u-turned was the correct one the whole time.
Wasn't a total bummer since I was able to help a girl in need. I am always there for the girls, thats what we do.
Then sunday was Assasination City roller derby!!!!!!!
You guys missed the fuck out on that one! So much BETTER then Haltom City and the lovely Cheapbastard announced the game. She has such a knack for it! Loads of fun and the bad girls won, whom I was rooting for. Truth Vs. Lies is there theme. Truth wears white and Lies wears black.
Chesty Larue was going around the rink in heels. I love drag queens! He had big heels on and would run and run, ask the crowd who wants to win. So funny!
After that is when I broke down, crying and thinking bad thoughts all the way home. Sucked donkey balls
BUT I am so much better, when I got home I was okay.
I told my daddoo about my anguish and hes worrying about me. Damn me and my big mouth.
My loneliness was quenched yesterday. I hung out with the biggest effin dork, Rush.
I brought my Jack with me and drank at 2 am tuesday morning then crashed. Hung out with his kids and him all day yesterday. Made the joke, "I'm surprised you haven't kicked me out yet." I always think others wish me to just leave so it was half a joke. I'm too much for others to handle, my dad agrees. We talked of my kickass journall from June 29. He read it, gave me a hug and said he is proud of me. I told him my past has helped me to grow and him and my mom too.
I do not dwell on the scars, the bad thoughts I used to have, and the many times I went crazy. I love all of me and will never hate that I am bi-polar. I wish to be this way! Its proven that mental illness has the positive side of great intelligence and artistic abilities. Like my writing skills! he he
So yeah, all better.
Nothing coming up since I have to do labs and study for a test. Oh yeah, Harry Pothead came out saturday!!!!!!
Cupofkarma reserved a book for moi at her "book dungeon." Thans girlie!
I'm at 370 I think. My mom finished it sunday. lol
My friends kid who I got pancakes for at Mcdonalds cause I was starving and so were they. I said, "Hey it would be funny to put a pancake on his head, like the bunny."
So this beats the bunny by a fucken million.
More of something later. Way too tired and have school.
Wow, class was only 23 min. today. Rock! We have no class tomorrow cause its a lab day! WHOO
This weekend was loads of fun besides my break down.
Anyone can see from my past entrys the shit that is in my head. Just really really lonely and never get that bad, but seeing love in others life is fucken annoying when I have no one. I do not need a fucken leash though. I put up with that for 4 years and wish to not be with someone permanetley for another 3. ha ha ha
Even though one I wish so much to be with I will never be with since he is unattainable. So perfect and makes me feel so good. Very positive person! And I really need that, he helps me so much.
Weekend consisted of working,
, and having fun with friends.
Went to Bloodfeast III on saturday with Xcdat and Jimbo. Those guys are too funny! Xcdat bought me a drink again. he he I had only enough for the door and two drinks so that was nice. I saw only 4 bands or so cause I worked til 8:30. I only really liked G Strings who are from France. I loved seeing the bassist stand on the side of the upright bass and play it. Man thats so cool!
Most of them did that!
Then went to Vampirelust place to drink. Hung out then had to help out his friend which took hours cause of shite directions, my sleep deprived ass, and not knowing that the one road we went on then u-turned was the correct one the whole time.
Wasn't a total bummer since I was able to help a girl in need. I am always there for the girls, thats what we do.
Then sunday was Assasination City roller derby!!!!!!!
You guys missed the fuck out on that one! So much BETTER then Haltom City and the lovely Cheapbastard announced the game. She has such a knack for it! Loads of fun and the bad girls won, whom I was rooting for. Truth Vs. Lies is there theme. Truth wears white and Lies wears black.
Chesty Larue was going around the rink in heels. I love drag queens! He had big heels on and would run and run, ask the crowd who wants to win. So funny!
After that is when I broke down, crying and thinking bad thoughts all the way home. Sucked donkey balls
BUT I am so much better, when I got home I was okay.
I told my daddoo about my anguish and hes worrying about me. Damn me and my big mouth.
My loneliness was quenched yesterday. I hung out with the biggest effin dork, Rush.
I brought my Jack with me and drank at 2 am tuesday morning then crashed. Hung out with his kids and him all day yesterday. Made the joke, "I'm surprised you haven't kicked me out yet." I always think others wish me to just leave so it was half a joke. I'm too much for others to handle, my dad agrees. We talked of my kickass journall from June 29. He read it, gave me a hug and said he is proud of me. I told him my past has helped me to grow and him and my mom too.
I do not dwell on the scars, the bad thoughts I used to have, and the many times I went crazy. I love all of me and will never hate that I am bi-polar. I wish to be this way! Its proven that mental illness has the positive side of great intelligence and artistic abilities. Like my writing skills! he he
So yeah, all better.
Nothing coming up since I have to do labs and study for a test. Oh yeah, Harry Pothead came out saturday!!!!!!
Cupofkarma reserved a book for moi at her "book dungeon." Thans girlie!
I'm at 370 I think. My mom finished it sunday. lol
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Nice, thanks.
Scenario two. My reaction to her inspired me to tell the gal that I love how I feel. Her reaction was more along the lines of, "No shit? Well hell, I think you kick ass. Sure, let's give it a shot." That was awesome. Unfortunately, she's also very far away.
Either way, though, neither turned out poorly, and know everybody's in the know.
Just some food for thought, though. Everybody's situation is different.
And I love being biploar! Awww, but now it's making me sad.... Now I'm happy again! How did I cheer up so fast? I'm so weird. That makes me sad. Oh shit! Here comes some happy! ....