allycat_13

Suicide Trees

by Otep
[1]

I spent my whole life
in love with despair

kept my lungs full
with the breath of their
mute atmosphere

... I became what I hate.

and thus shall I remain
to give birth to a mighty assassin
armed with a weapon of words

to defy the lies
to never compromise

no.
today, my name .... is pain.

[2]

I stood
beyond the world

whispering secret syllables
in the eyeless dark

dancing wildly
round and round on the rotting ground

surrounded by the dead dusts of Hell ...

this is how I delete myself
& this is how I corrupt everyone else

obey
obey
betray
betray

you are not unique.
you do not need to think.
take it, take it!

I will,
I will ... I will.

you succumb, so nicely.

[like an insect staring back, like a dying dove]
my love ..... [no] ..... my love.

[song]

so here we are again
the sheets are stained & bloodied
the animals scratch at my skin

here we are again
my face is scraped & bloodied
I've nothing left to give

- I wasn't there,
- I'm not involved,
- I'm innocent,
- it's not my fault.

- I wasn't there,
- I'm not involved,
- I'm innocent,
- it's not my fault.

.. here in the suicide trees.
.. here in the suicide trees.

[[no. bloody, bloody, bloody, MURDER!]]
AMONG THE EXCREMENT OF MY SINS!!
it's not happening, it can't be happening, it's not happening.

so here we are again
in secret ceremonies
changing shape, amen.

here we are again
pretending not to notice
the illness sneaking in.

- I wasn't there,
- I'm not involved,
- I'm innocent,
- it's not my fault.

- I wasn't there,
- I'm not involved,
- I'm innocent,
- it's not my fault.

.. here in the suicide trees.
.. here in the suicide trees.

toil & labor
hate your neighbor
faith in favor
obey!

toil & labor
hate your neighbor
faith in favor
obey!

OBEY.
OBEY.

HERE, I DO AS I PLEASE!
HERE IN THE SUICIDE TREES!

HERE, I DO AS I PLEASE!
HERE IN THE SUICIDE TREES!!

OBEY!!

HATE YOUR NEIGHBORS!
HATE YOUR NEIGHBORS!!

[the animals scratch at my skin]
it's not happening, it's not happening.

Nothing to report. Same Shit Different Day.
I love to play fight, but why must my body be sore the next day. ARGH
Marguritas were nice and tasty, too bad most were wasted on douches. Halo rocked, but not for me. Sucked once again, but I was playing with badasses who knew exactly what they were doing. Watched So I Married an Axe murderer afterwards. Vash was the cabana boy and made the marguritas since I know shite about preparing them. Watched and learned and shall try to make them sometime.
Didn't smoke much of my bud, saved it for opening today for dominos. So needed it since my body was sore from karate kicking Vash. he he
Otep this wed. and can't wait. Going by myself which sucks, but what can you do. No one knows who they are I guess.
NIN tickets went on sale friday to the general public and guess what bitch got two?????
Me thats who! This bitch be going to NIN on May 25 and I will be taking someone unknown. Probably going to hold a contest. Make someone a slave of some sort. Prove to me they are badass enough to go to such an amazing concert to the most amazing city in Texas. And of course with the most kickass girl in town.
Slipknot is in less then a month also so my luck has been badass with shows coming through Texas. How sad is it that when I was with a guy who loved the same music as I do would never get off his lazy ass and go to a show. We missed out on some great stuff over the last 4 years.
El Douche!!!!!
Oh my I still have smoke left. Dominos wasn't busy at all since the weather was too freakin happy go lucky for anyone to order out. Made around 50 cash total. Bought groceries and filled my gas tank up so thats grand. Glad I still have osme money left and enough smoke to last next few days. Just got to smoke a bowl a day and thats it.