Fucken finally! 
My birthday kicked fucken ASS!!!!!!!!!
Bakeryman, as promised, baked me a yummy birthday cheesecake. It had an oreo cookie crust with ooie gooey caramel between the crust and chocolate cheesecake. Only crap thing about it was it fell apart so easily, but thats cheesecake for ya. he he So yummy! Ate the last piece last night!
Malaclypse, Laura, and Matt came with us to Oak Lawn to S4 to go see the drag queen show. I've always wanted to see one so I was really excited. It was also boys night out so they had a male dance contest going on for a prize of $150. Some funny shit watching men dancing in a cage. lol I had to stick a dollar in one guys man panties since he hoisted himself off the ground sideways not once, but 5 fucken times. It was like pull ups, but from a side stance. It was some acrobatic shit man. he he He did this little dance for me. I giggled like a little school girl and thought he would pull his underwear back for the dollar, but no he wouldn't and he saw my face turn red. I wouldn't even look at him and I could see him smiling bigger and bigger at my embarrassment of not wanting to touch his underwear. So I reached in the cage and tried not to pull too hard as to not see his package. Man his face was like this
So back upstairs to watch more queens sing. I was drinking Long Island Iced Teas. Big fucken mistake!
My plan was to get drunk, but I drank them way too fast and had 5. I was shit faced by the end and when Closer came on the speakers I went crazy. I stood up singing loudly, headbanging, grabbing on Laura, fondling her, and touching myself while dancing to I Want to FUCK You Like an ANIMAL!!!!!
The Queen walked by and said, "You get down girl," but it wasn't in a nice tone of voice. It was real fucken mean so Laura and I discussed this and our conclusion was I stole the show away from her. HA
Well, don't play my favorite NIN song then!
Then after Closer we decide to leave since the show is done for the night. I am fucken DRUNK by this time and its really dark outside the club. Laura's friends Chris and Diana came up there to hang out from Deep Ellum so I asked them if they were going to go with us back to Lauras and said loudly, "I have POT!!!!," as a male cop is standing right fucken 7 or so feet from us. Laura is trying to quiet me down, but doesn't say why and I can't see him since hes wearing fucken black in the dark so I say what Marijuana, Mary Jane, etc. Another female cop comes up and they both just stare at me. Two of my friends walk off pissed and I'm standing there being drunk. Yeah, I am silly.
So I get back to the car after realizing the friends are gone, thank god, and go back to Lauras where I start to feeling sick. Yeah folks, this is why I do not get drunk. I act like a fucktard, I piss off my friends, I puke my guts out, and feel like shit not for one day, but for 4 fucken days straight.
This is the very reason why I smot poke. Its exspensive too!
I can get drunk in moderation, but it never seems to be fun huh. lol
Other then the bad shit the night was so much fun and I had such a fucken blast meeting Malaclypses friends whom all wished me a hapy birthday
and were so very nice. Loved having friends whom I adore celebrate with me something I truly never have fun doing. Meant alot to me. Sucked some couldn't go and sucked I forgot to call some people.
Rain checks eh?
On another note February is drawing near and my god I broke the fuck down about an hour ago. Hung out with Laura last night and two of her friends one of whom was having emotional problems concerning his deceased father. The guy actually cryed, it really struck me hard. Haven't seen a man cry in a long time and all I could think about was Pops. I miss that old fucker, I really really fucken do. No one really knows who that is, hes my exs father who passed on years ago. Pretty much the reason why my ex became the major asshole halfway through our shite relationship. After his dad passed on we went downhill. He lost a father and well so did I. Never had I gotten close enough to a man where I knew his family. I met his father about 2 or so months into our relationship and it seemed just then he accepted me as his own kin. Sounds funny I guess, but it felt that way. Never in my life and I mean never have I felt accepted so fast then with Pops without any judgement whatsoever. He always told James, "Never fuck this one up, shes a good girl." I never knew for sure, but I felt he wanted me as his daughter, for James to marry me. I know he loved me as a daughter, he sure treated me like one. So as the 6th draws near my heart is going to ache more and more and the tears will seem to never end. I decided after 5:30 today when James gets off of work I will call and if he answers ask where Pops is baried exactly and if not leave a message. I know his ass won't answer. We haven't spoken since I called about talking more after I called back in October. Damn pussy wants to keep his old lady happy I guess. lol Man she needs to grow up. Like I want that fat bastard to by my boyfriend again! HA HA HA HA HA
I think this will be his 4 year anniversary and I still haven't seen his gravesite since the funeral. I know James never will, he told me that once. It hurts too much for him. I can't stay away any longer though.
My birthday kicked fucken ASS!!!!!!!!!
Bakeryman, as promised, baked me a yummy birthday cheesecake. It had an oreo cookie crust with ooie gooey caramel between the crust and chocolate cheesecake. Only crap thing about it was it fell apart so easily, but thats cheesecake for ya. he he So yummy! Ate the last piece last night!
Malaclypse, Laura, and Matt came with us to Oak Lawn to S4 to go see the drag queen show. I've always wanted to see one so I was really excited. It was also boys night out so they had a male dance contest going on for a prize of $150. Some funny shit watching men dancing in a cage. lol I had to stick a dollar in one guys man panties since he hoisted himself off the ground sideways not once, but 5 fucken times. It was like pull ups, but from a side stance. It was some acrobatic shit man. he he He did this little dance for me. I giggled like a little school girl and thought he would pull his underwear back for the dollar, but no he wouldn't and he saw my face turn red. I wouldn't even look at him and I could see him smiling bigger and bigger at my embarrassment of not wanting to touch his underwear. So I reached in the cage and tried not to pull too hard as to not see his package. Man his face was like this
So back upstairs to watch more queens sing. I was drinking Long Island Iced Teas. Big fucken mistake!
My plan was to get drunk, but I drank them way too fast and had 5. I was shit faced by the end and when Closer came on the speakers I went crazy. I stood up singing loudly, headbanging, grabbing on Laura, fondling her, and touching myself while dancing to I Want to FUCK You Like an ANIMAL!!!!!
The Queen walked by and said, "You get down girl," but it wasn't in a nice tone of voice. It was real fucken mean so Laura and I discussed this and our conclusion was I stole the show away from her. HA
Well, don't play my favorite NIN song then!
Then after Closer we decide to leave since the show is done for the night. I am fucken DRUNK by this time and its really dark outside the club. Laura's friends Chris and Diana came up there to hang out from Deep Ellum so I asked them if they were going to go with us back to Lauras and said loudly, "I have POT!!!!," as a male cop is standing right fucken 7 or so feet from us. Laura is trying to quiet me down, but doesn't say why and I can't see him since hes wearing fucken black in the dark so I say what Marijuana, Mary Jane, etc. Another female cop comes up and they both just stare at me. Two of my friends walk off pissed and I'm standing there being drunk. Yeah, I am silly.
So I get back to the car after realizing the friends are gone, thank god, and go back to Lauras where I start to feeling sick. Yeah folks, this is why I do not get drunk. I act like a fucktard, I piss off my friends, I puke my guts out, and feel like shit not for one day, but for 4 fucken days straight.
This is the very reason why I smot poke. Its exspensive too!
I can get drunk in moderation, but it never seems to be fun huh. lol
Other then the bad shit the night was so much fun and I had such a fucken blast meeting Malaclypses friends whom all wished me a hapy birthday
and were so very nice. Loved having friends whom I adore celebrate with me something I truly never have fun doing. Meant alot to me. Sucked some couldn't go and sucked I forgot to call some people.
Rain checks eh?
On another note February is drawing near and my god I broke the fuck down about an hour ago. Hung out with Laura last night and two of her friends one of whom was having emotional problems concerning his deceased father. The guy actually cryed, it really struck me hard. Haven't seen a man cry in a long time and all I could think about was Pops. I miss that old fucker, I really really fucken do. No one really knows who that is, hes my exs father who passed on years ago. Pretty much the reason why my ex became the major asshole halfway through our shite relationship. After his dad passed on we went downhill. He lost a father and well so did I. Never had I gotten close enough to a man where I knew his family. I met his father about 2 or so months into our relationship and it seemed just then he accepted me as his own kin. Sounds funny I guess, but it felt that way. Never in my life and I mean never have I felt accepted so fast then with Pops without any judgement whatsoever. He always told James, "Never fuck this one up, shes a good girl." I never knew for sure, but I felt he wanted me as his daughter, for James to marry me. I know he loved me as a daughter, he sure treated me like one. So as the 6th draws near my heart is going to ache more and more and the tears will seem to never end. I decided after 5:30 today when James gets off of work I will call and if he answers ask where Pops is baried exactly and if not leave a message. I know his ass won't answer. We haven't spoken since I called about talking more after I called back in October. Damn pussy wants to keep his old lady happy I guess. lol Man she needs to grow up. Like I want that fat bastard to by my boyfriend again! HA HA HA HA HA
I think this will be his 4 year anniversary and I still haven't seen his gravesite since the funeral. I know James never will, he told me that once. It hurts too much for him. I can't stay away any longer though.
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i've been jonesing over one fella since before he came along, so i'm back to trying to sway him. haha!
and i don't know.
i kinda want to, but i dunno if i've even got enough to get in the door!