allure

There's used to be amassive stigma attached to depression and other mental illnesses, so I can understand why you don't want to think this has happened to you. If your symptoms were like a chest infection, you'd probably get it treated. Don't look at this differently

From the sounds of it, it is something that has already had an impact on your life. It might be a minor case that can be treated with minimal medical intervention. I don't know your family situation, but Christmas can be a pretty hectic time, so that might also have an impact.

I still think you should talk to a doctor about it. They might be able to give you some options that don't involve drugs

thanks guys