allonblack

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Jay - 2 Bar - 0

I'm finally winning. Twice in the last week I entered a bar, and drinking myself stupid was the last thought on my mind. Tonight, I had some RC and watched the Lakers lose.

The first thing on my mind? Where to even start. How do you describe someone you are willing to do anything for? Anything... I know how lucky I am. I know exactly how lucky I am. I have this person that all I want is to wake up next to her and hopefully, I get to see her smile. That's all I want.

All you can hope for is that she feels one tenth of what you feel for her. Because that is enough to make someone happy. This, is good. It hurts not being there strapping boxes to my back and giving her a thumbs up and a slap to my ass to let her know, it's going to be ok. We'll make it. That hurts more than any physical pain I go through. Physical pain is temporary. The body will heal itself.

But having this open wound on the heart is basically you cutting it open, then everytime she calls, you're kind of pouring salt on it, but you never want her to hang up.

All you can hope is she feels one tenth of what you feel. Tuck me in gorgeous. I need to sleep.