alliedcries

fuck my life. Talk about random fucking luck of things.

I noticed how somethings for some people call into place perfectly and oh things work out just so fucking amazing for others. the pure fucknig luck of things. seriously I do not understand why I can watch god take a shit all over my life. I see it and feel it every day of my life.

Something happeneds and its so amazing and wonderful for a minute. seriously. Its just a matter of time for perfection to turn into a pile of warm dog shit on my shoe or something stupid liek that. I really hate my life.

Plans canceled tonight. still hopeful to run into a girl at the bar. did not. then had plans as soon as I left the bar. feel apart. Then tried for back up plans didn't work out. then holy shit an old firned who I love to death wanted to hang out. fuuck.. I drive all the way out there. what the fuck house is her's? hmm I dont' know. Lets clal her. oh fucking great. phone is not working. sit out front of a street of housses that look all the same. pitch fucking black. where were allt he god damn street lights. so I say fuck it come home and realize defeat. tonight was ment to be a pile of shit on my life.