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I've always been a dreamer and I always told everyone in good talks and so that - if I had my own business.. I could never had just one! I'd love to be a paranormal activity investigator and have my own super team and I'd love to have a big retro space where I could have - a tattoo studio where I'd be a tattooer; a typical 50's american restaurant with all those big milkshakes and fries with huge burguers and so and so; a place to promote all local alternative clothing brands and artists; and in the underground have a studio to all the bands who can't own/pay a garage and a big room for concerts.

ok, so 'why' the paranormal activity investigator interest - me and my family have always believed in the paranormal world, we've been through some experiences and already have some stories to tell (I'll leave this to another thread!) but what made me grow up with this little dream was that when I was 2 my grandfather died with cancer and I was the love of his life, he always wanted to have a daughter and yet he had two boys. the moment I was born he just gave up on everything to be with me all day, to take me to the park, take me to the doctor, to offer me everything that I wanted.. everything! he spoiled me till he started going down on his disease... after this, strange happenings occurred during my growth and I never had the courage to face them, I was always scared, afraid that something or someone could hurt me, I was too young. but now I see that it was him. he was always there for me, to see me and protect me and I was always trying to run and push that scary energy away. now I want to help people in the same or simillar situation, I want to help them not to be afraid and make them see that sometimes what they feel, that most of the times can't be seen, doesn't mean it's somehow 'bad', it might mean that we are still loved, even if we're in different worlds. (I understand if some people can't believe in this, but I grew up with this so I really do)

about the other business! there's not much more to be said, I think that we need that motivation and more people who want to bring up all the alternative lifestyle. specially in my country, Portugal, it is still not ready to face the alternative comunity! what's sad. but this is not a reason to leave the country! I think that we should invest here, we can never give up on the things we love and that we know that will only be good to all.

I work at a supermarket at night, it's not everyone's dream job, but it's what I do right now, without any shame, trying to save some money till someday I can make my dreams come true! who knows if some people will join me on this fight? :)

xoxo,

Undine