Christmas is to talk about joy, hope and achievements.
But I felt like being honest and talking about frustrations.
I have been feeling very frustrated about self-esteem, photos, rehearsals ...
I saw countless girls taking wonderful Christmas photos, I felt like doing it too. But I only got this montage here.
I haven't been able to get a good photo or video in a long time, I haven't posted anything in a long time. Can you imagine how frustrated it is? Being a Suicide Girl was a dream (hopeful for me does not make any difference), then I start and suddenly comes down and low mood.
I imagine you all go through this from time to time, but maybe not all of you confess. Lack of time, lack of courage to get ready, lack of creativity, lack of scenery, lack of photographer ... It gives the feeling that the universe wants you to give up. I know the story of some girls here, who have overcome much greater difficulties and won by sheer willpower. I have been lacking this, willpower, courage. And the strangest thing is that it is something I LOVE to do! Really! I need to recover this commitment to myself, to organize myself better. Is it worth promising change for the new year? I hope to find my spirits lost, and if you are reading, you are also going through this, I wish you a lot of willpower! Let's fight?
