I will not be renewing when my SG membership expires in a month or two. I just really dislike this new format.

I do not have a tablet. This is not for me.

If you want contact info for places that aren't here, send me a message and I will respond next time I'm able to get the site to load.

Also, for the record, my life is changing in new, dramatic ways. I mean, there's the same job, same city, same place of residence, same husband, same collection of friends, the living are mostly still living and the dead are entirely still dead.

But as of next July, assuming nothing goes awry, a tiny human will explode out of my much loved private parts. Yes, my internet friends, I am having a baby.

I am of mixed opinion on this.

Yes, of course, I love the thing already. It is no bigger than the overall mass of a peach and incapable of independent life, but I love it. This in spite of the fact that due to nausea and other first trimester ills, I lost roughly 15 pounds so far and they aren't coming back yet. I have been sick all the time and life has been much more difficult than usual. Morning sickness is a misnomer: it's all day, everyday sickness. It's not just being more tired, it's like being knocked out with flu exhaustion every waking minute. It's migranes when I have never had them before, motion sickness if I so much as stand for too long (and I take the subway and bus for over an hour each way everyday). It's a little scary.

Actually, pregnancy in general is a LOT scary. So is the prospect of life after.

My hubby is going to be the most amazing father. Of that I have no doubt. I however have no idea what I'm getting myself into and I am not really excited the way many people expect me to be.

But it's my little bug. I love my little bug.

Hopefully soon there will be some recovery from the misery. It's already starting. Then maybe I will enjoy some piece of this.

In the meanwhile,

Love to you...