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Sunday Oct 14, 2007

Oct 14, 2007
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Thank you for reading my play! (If you haven't, and you'd like to, go back to the blog entry from October 10th.) I've had the problem that all the people I've asked to read it have known the guy it's based on, so all I got were comments about how accurately I portrayed him. That's wasn't enough to know if there was anything good in here. If anyone out there really DIDN'T like it, please tell me.


So, WHY I wrote it:

I don't write very frequently. I need to be throughly struck by an image, thought, moment, what have you, for the creative juices to force their way out. I become compelled to write: play, poem, story. Upon later reflection, what I write never seems to match the depth of the experience, so it gets pretty frustrating. And so, I don't write often.


In any case, this play was based on a moment. I was with my friend Aaron, an Orthodox Jewish actor, in the big theatre at our school. We had recently graduated and were back begging a favor for the production we were both involved with in the city. I was off doing loads of work, and I saw him wander onto the stage. He stood there and stared out. That's when it hit me. I saw that Aaron was a man who served two gods. Suddenly so much of him made sense to me.
For the next few weeks, I bullied him to write the play about his two gods, but he couldn't do it. He thought he'd have to write a play where God was a character, and that was taboo beyond measure.
And so, he didn't write it. He did however, say that I could. And so, I did.

I'm so glad I did.

A little (a lot) about the source material:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Aaron and I had a complex relationship. I hated him when I met him. He tried way too hard to make other people like him. He had transfered in from a school in Florida. With now much he talked about the place, we were never going to forget it. He was touchy-feely in a creepy way ("No Aaron, I really don't want a massage right now, but, uh, thanks for offering"). Of course, I still had to spend lots of time with him due to all the shows we did together.
Over the next few years, he grew a lot. He calmed down quite a bit. By the time we were in Acting IV together, we were friends. By the time we were out of Acting IV, we were more than friends (both of our scenes together that semester were sexual in nature, and our mutual attraction carried us out of rehearsal mode more than once). I denied any attraction to him to absolutely everyone. While I started to relate to him, no one else had. Moreover, I was still quite involved with my jealous girlfriend of many years. Also importantly, he still would get on my nerves. All David's faults are Aaron's faults, plus a load more. Still, we were friends, and for a awhile, he was the only friend I had going through the same thing I was going through. He grew to be quite important.
After the term of our greatest closeness, we grew apart freakishly fast. I grew to hate him over the work we should have been doing together that was all left to me, his compulsive lying the way all the good acting work we did together went down the drain entirely. He was always incredibly frustrating.

We ended up working together again anyway (though any mild sexual interaction from here was dead and uninteresting). He gave me the breaks I needed. Of course, the shows he got me involved with ended up being quite unpleasant experiences that I was never fully compensated for (granted, neither was he). The last time he got me involved with a project that didn't pay (this time I was promised over $1000 for some compositional work) I told him I wasn't going to work with him again, and probably not talk to him for awhile. And there we stopped.

He's only contacted me twice since then, to offer me a job as a stage manager (something I grew to hate during the last show with him) of a touring show, and then again begging and offering me more money to do it.
I didn't take it, though I'm a little sorry for it now considering my monetary state (but not much).

It took till I was out of contact with him to realize that spending time with him left me depressed. I fell into his world view. He always seemed pretty well adjusted in it, and you wouldn't even notice that he gained your confidence by sharing negative facts and gossip about celebrities and later, the people you work with. Information was filtered so that it was you and him against all these other people who suck, all against an unfair and unforgiving world. I don't think that filter was deliberate on his part,that's just how he sees things.


This description hasn't done him justice at all, but that can happen when describing people who are more memory than real.

From time to time, I miss him. I don't know anyone who would understand that.

VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
greaser:
I'll take all three! There's no kind of Allegro smooch that wouldn't do me a workd of good right now love

Yes, we should definitely go somewhere else. Thanks for being such a sweetheart. I absolutely adore you kiss
Oct 16, 2007
candee:
glad you liked the set!@
lets hope it gets a second chance!
Oct 17, 2007

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