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And the cycles continue.



And perhaps more telling,



And now I reconsider again. Maybe it's worth the debt to get married sooner. It's one way to increase the chances my dad won't crazy himself to death first, and that it could be before my mom finally breaks free and moves far far away, and before I'm left to care for my work phobic but brilliant...
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brightredscream:
I think we'll both find our accomplishments soon.
grayness:
Thank you.

And thanks for being around. Without the people I enjoy, I'd be a much darker Grayness, indeed.

love
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Thank you for the love y'all.

Eventually I ended up braving the snow and waiting outside for two hours for a van arrival, but in the end everything that needed doing got done. Now I am dry, warm, stoned, happy, and waiting for indian food.
My hubby is right here, his best friend is hosting, the cats are all over me.

And dang this is...
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grayness:
I and my team mate solved a problem today that even the best and brightest at the company had taken repeated shots at with no results. And it worked out today that next Thursday will be his last day, not today. I'm going to miss him, so that was a happy thing, indeed.

I think we may have another minor miracle or two to work, between us, before he's gone, too.

As I've said before, the prospect of a set from you... well, this gives me much to which to look forward. love Just the thought of it is definitely something to make my heart beat a bit faster, and make me smile.

Come what may, though, I'm glad you're around.

Cats *are* great, aren't they? And it's even nicer to have another human with whom to share them.

I'm glad your day is ending well... and I hope your tomorrow carries on in the same note.

morgan:
I'm working my way through the Watch books as well! We're missing one but it should arrive later this week.
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I am an anxious wreck today.
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greaser:
Aww, I'm sorryfrown

I find that slow, deep, rhythmic breaths, while seated in a comfortable position with my eyes closed, does wonders for helping me cope with anxiety.
grayness:
Many, many good thoughts, sent retroactively. After all, since I don't know the outcome, it wouldn't create a paradox from my point of view if the past was altered, a bit.
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It shouldn't be possible to be depressed about being depressed.
Let it never be said I limit myself in such ventures.

My love is having a freakout. I haven't fooled around at all since last year, and he trusts me. Still, he had flashes and it is making him irrationally angry and jealous (that's how he puts it). I'm calming him down and pulling him...
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grayness:
For someone who was up and out do early, you're up rather late.
...but then, so am I.

In my case it's sheer refusal to let go of the day before.. I just guess before I'm ready. And I'm not yet, quite.
grayness:
Those of us with a only vaguely regular sleep cycle sometimes have a bit less discipline in the matter- which is why I've been having so many 2 and 3 AM starts lately. wink Mornings usually hold more attraction anyhow... I can have tea and not worry about winding up having missed an entire night of sleep. As it is tonight, I'm courting danger with just the one cup.

Your evening sounds good. This makes me glad. smile
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Last night I was out at a bar drinking for the first time in (COUNTING FINGERS NOT WORKING WITH HANGOVER HEAD) weeks. It was Tim's birthday, and even I can enjoy a sports bar, as long as the sports on the TVs are rugby and curling and the crowd is all congenial disinterested Americans. It was a good time.

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lusyd:
Enjoy your... next activities.
greaser:
Now I need to find a copy. I only have three Beach Boys albums on my iPod anyway, and that's not nearly enough!
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I want to flirt.

I want to be out with a group of new and old friends and acquaintances in a friendly bar that's not too loud, with private corners and retreats.
I want to discover new commonalities and explore new possibilities with known people.
I want to be excited by a hand brushing my thigh, or the notion of someone leaning in to me....
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greaser:
Anxiety tends to make one long for such things.

But even though I feel unusually content right now, most of those things sound pretty goodsmile
lusyd:
I enjoy taking those trips often as well smile

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And as soon as I make peace with it, it all falls apart.

We're cutting costs wherever we can, but my wedding will be more expensive than we can afford. The idea of a bridge loan to pay for it is a terrible one. The idea of postponing it is more reasonable, but the idea of going through the misery I've had so far twice...
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grayness:
You and he both have my very best thoughts. Much, much good luck is wished.
greaser:
Aww, hon, I wish you weren't having such a hard time with this.

Just try and keep things in perspective. You're marrying a man you love, and if you can do that with family and a few close friends around, nothing else really matters.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

But that's probably occurred to you already. It's a shame I'm so far away. I'm gifted when it comes to getting things done as cheaply and efficiently as possible. wink


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No posts since January? Sheesh.

You'd never know I look at this site everyday. Totally true.
I don't blog because one of two things are usually true.
1. I have nothing to say in a blog.
2. I have no time to say anything in a blog.

Today I am stuck at work for no good reason, and it has meant having some time to...
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grayness:
love

In no particular order-

Squid always fascinated me, growing up. They seemed the closest the real world ever got to monsters or aliens. Just how real the real world is has always disappointed me.

Actually, I have a sneaking admiration for those who adhere to Miss Post, simply because it's a talent that is is nowhere within my manifest of talents. Manners, I can do- etiquette remains one of the rare arrays of trivia that doesn't stick to the inside of my head somewhere. It's always struck me as an aspect of order, and given chaos' reign in this world, that's something worth preserving.

There's always some brilliance about you.

I've started reading Midsummer.
greaser:
You may want to put some sunglasses onwink


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Sick. Again. This makes more times than I can count since September. I'm so friggin tired of it.

I reread the story I wrote in response to one written by then-TinyHobo. When my fiance read this story I wrote, he thought it was incredibly depressing. True, I can see why. But I still like it an awful lot.

Once upon a time this site was...
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grayness:
You know, as much as any given day may hold dread, you certainly brighten it when you show up. smile


We'll have to discuss Lear soon, I'll PM you but I have about a day or two more collecting my thoughts.


I am SO doing a comedy next. Do you have a particular favorite?
lusyd:
If you get a chance hun it's absolutely amazing.

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Thanks for waiting for me y'all.

There'll be a small housewarming (or, as I term it, apartment heating) party here tonight and all cleaning is done. I have another two hours before I have to kick back into prep mode. With the man napping, I come back to you!

I get the feeling this membership may expire soon, but I can't see when. If I...
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oxy:
I think the group story is going really nicely smile
greaser:
I miss your camera too! I'm fond of pictures of you. It's your fault for posting such delicious pictures in my thread way back whenwink

That's quite a happy looking cat you have theresmile
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The second job has reached its conclusion. This may mean I get some life back.

Oh, and the filthy story has grown marvelously. Hopefully it will now get even filthier!
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grayness:
...and how is the life?


Incidentally- love
greaser:
So, have you been made an honest woman yet?wink
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So, I fell through on my resolution to make a resolution. Yup. All I know is, I need to make it through the next two weeks, then life gets better. Also, I need to plan this wedding. I'm starting to freak out considering how much is left to do (in short, EVERYTHING).

Ooh!
If you are a member of Filthy Dirty Smutty Storytime, I...
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witchartist:
Hi Sweetie...I was thinking of you today for just something fun to do smile Don't stress too much over wedding stuff - it all gets done somehow. Take care and stay fantastic!
mjb67:
hah, the only resolution i ever had any success with was not to make any more resolutions.