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<--- Hahaha new pic, like the broken heart?? ..I dont, i found my glasses too. heh.

this journal entry is a bunch of babbling... mostly alot of ..out of my mind venting i would say...


I'm going to start posting songs that i have written. Since my mood is not a good one right now..... Earlier i started crying because i thought no one wanted to hang out with me... maybe i'm PMSing... (i hope so actually) But anyways.... I will be posing my songs. and since my mood is crappy, i will post a man hating song, and my only song i have written in 2005 so far, its about Drew.. the girl pants boy. the one who used me for sex....and then i went nuts! but heres that song.. :

DREWS SONG (copyright)

Tragedy,
Would be,
Me not ripping your fucking throat,
Out of your neck tonight,
You heartless fucking bastard,
I want you to die.

CHORUS
And dieings not,
a good enough,
a punishment,
For you pain you put me through,
I want you,
To rot in,
your flesh,
or to burn alive,
while i'm fucking laughing at you.

Your skin should be peeled,
back from your bones,
and your teeth should be ripped,
out with plyers,
from your fucking thick skull,
and i want you to die.

CHORUS
And dieings not,
a good enough,
a punishment,
For you pain you put me through,
I want you,
To rot in,
your flesh,
or to burn alive,
while i'm fucking laughing at you.

Ide like to pull every vein,
From your fingers and feet,
Til they get to your fucking excuse of a heart,
and tear it out of your chest,
while your still alive,
So you can watch me,
rip away at it,
just as youve done to me,
and i want you do die,

CHORUS
And dieings not,
a good enough,
a punishment,
For you pain you put me through,
I want you,
To rot in,
your flesh,
or to burn alive,
while i'm fucking laughing at you.


I hate do admit that Im dieing inside because of you,
But Im still here, and alive...
SO YOU CAN FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT YOU TO FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU BECAUSE YOU DESURVE TO FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!


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Well that was it. ha! he tells me he wants to be friends now.... yeah... umm... and i am stupid enuff, i might just give him another chance.. i REALLY did like him. Eh...

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Apparently Travis , LuciaFurr,s friend, and my new friend, likes me. i dunno.. last nite he said he wanted to hang out today, so i called and he didnt answer.. then at like... 8:30pm, he sent me a text message on my phone that just said "Smile"..and i did smile. but then i called him and he said he was at work and hes putting up chairs and getting ready to leave and he would call me when he got off ..... two hours went by.. i called him, and he was playing poker with his friends and getting high... so... i told him he could let me go so he could do whatever, so then he said he would call me a little later... and now its been like.. 5 hours since then.. he still hasnt called.. lol..... Christ on a cracker whats wrong with me, am i getting hung up on him or what??? damnit to fucking hell its not fair... he is still KINDA with his girlfriend.. not quite sure how thats working.. its like a break or somthing... she doesnt have time for him.. hmm...... i would give somone like him all the time i could, ungreatful cunt. ugh... well its not like him and i have shared anything too special for me to be thinking about him alot like i have..WE just had a kiss in the cold at 3am... thats all...i think.....but i think he likes LuciaFurr too, he was rubbing her back and stuff the other nite... , hmmmm

lol, it reminds me that Killer's song, Mr. Brightside
"........i'm coming out of my cage, and i've been doing just fine, i gotta, gotta be down because i want it all, it started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this, it was only a kiss, i was only a kiss.....and theyre going to bed, and my stomack is sick, buts its all in my head, but shes touching his chest now, he takes off her dress now...let me go....i just cant look its killing me..and taking control, Jealousy......."

I swear if i wanna discribe a time in my life.. i have a song to go along with it...