alkatraz

OKAY...not last nite....but the nite b4 (yes 3 nites in a row now) Me and my girlfriend LuciaFurr went to see the guy we messed around with the other nite... we went over to his moms house (cuz his parents were at a cat show or somthing..his mom breads them..they r so cute and lovable) anyways... we went over there... and like... he answered the door with his shirt all unbuttoned..the house was weird smelling..and there was like 45 cats, lol. So us there were in this small room... and she sat on a chair and i sat on the bed cuz i was standing and he wanted me to sit with him....but heres what happened :

1 pantless man.
1 down of the dead.
The lights went off.
His wondering hand down my pants.
3 wondering cats.
She wouldnt come onto the bed.
My pants staying on was NOT an option to him.
he stuck it in me without asking.
he fucked me infront of her.
blood everywhere like last weekend.
Me in the bathroom cleaning myself.
Me staying in the bathroom for like 40 minutes with 2 cats sitting on me.
Him making her clean the sheets.
Me crying.
Him coming in naked, touching my face and telling me im beautiful.
Him putting my hand on his dick.
Me telling him "i dont want to do anything anymore, i want to be alone".
Her and i talk in the bathroom and agree we need to get out of there.
she waits outside the bedroom.
I go in and get my stuff.
I go to leave after he asks for a hug.
His eyes well up in tears and he puts his face into his pillow.
Her and i leave.

It was awkward...Once again.... no condoms used.

Her and i had a talk by the river.. then i went home and cried on the way listening to Avril - "Im With You"




_______________Yesterday_________________


My mom found blood on a garment of clothing..
I told her i Had my period...
She found no pads or tampons...
Yelled at me for lieing and took away my car...
yelled at me and said "since when dont u tell me things..."
She drove me to work...
And picked me up...
I went home and layed in bed...
i was called upstairs....
my step dad and mom were standing there..
he said "so did this guy take advantage4 of you or what, cuz if he did wer are calling the cops"..
They wanted to know who HE was...
I told them somone i played poker with...
I cried and said it was my decision..he used protection...
I lied.. they thought it was my first time.
I kept saying i didnt want to talk about it.
My step dad asked how long he lasted...
My mom said she was happy i waited til i was almost 20, but sad that it wasnt somone i was in a relationship with that i cared about.



I went to bed at 7pm.... just woke up here about an hour ago.