alkaline

Thanks to those who left sweet messages on yesterdays blog! I feel better today, I really just needed a day to be sad and I needed it to be okay to be sad. Little Barney will get a burial and all will be well. I've decided I'll get a little fishy tattoo in his memory as well

Tomorrow I go see my uncle for what I can only assume will be the last time. He lives about 2 hours away and for those who don't know, has terminal cancer. Apparently he is out of the hospital at home but not doing well. He doesn't want to go back because once he's back in, he will never get out. And he wants to die at home. So at least I get to see him in a comfortable place. Don't worry or feel bad for me. It will be sad but like I've said, we aren't really close - I am more supporting my mom who is losing her baby brother. For me it's just more awkward. I don't know how to act to someone I know is dying. But I actually tend to do well in bad situations so I'm sure it will not be as bad as I think.

After that, I'll have my 2 day weekend. I am REEEAAALLLY hoping it's still sunny (though weather says its gonna rain). I haven't had a day off on a really nice day in along time and I want to go to the park SO badly. I just want to have a nice walk with nice scenery and relax my brain a bit. So cross your fingers for park weather for me?

I think I'm gonna go read cosmo in the tub now haha. And then find something yummy to eat. I've been making the best sandwiches lately and I think I may be craving one. Veggie cajun chicken = YUM!

I need some fucking human contact. I can't even remember the last time I even had a real hug. Little hello good bye hugs, but not a REAL one.



OH! And check this dude out!! I HAD to buy him obviously!