alivewocause

You know... looking into your own eye kinda creeps me out. I have know idea if it is just the fact that i can see all the shit i have been through or all the shit i have done in the name of fun, but i cannot look at myself in the mirror. I mean i can to get ready because it takes a hell of a long time to brush out my long ass hair but as far as looking ot myself just to look, i cannot bring myself to do so. It is right along the same line as pain, not the good kind but the kind that makes you want to throw up and go lie in a bed and never want to crawl out. It makes me wonder if being human really worth it. What if we were all animals and acted on instinct.... there would be no pain, no worry, no hate, but no love. And right there makes me stop and like the fact that i am a human because i now have the choice to do what ever i want to do. I might have to live with what i do and i might even come to regret it (though i never regret anything, live life and have fun), you still had fun and that is all that matters. And if you cannot have fun alone, have it with someone else....

Well, all is well in my town, how about yours. I hope all is well and it is snowing there as it is in mine. Snow makes me sooooooo happy. I think i have backwards winter depression. I do not get depressed during the winter, i get depressed during the summer. Sunny days piss me off, where as if it is cloudy or raining, i am the happiest person you will wver meet. Have fun in your little town and hope to hear from you. Peace
Alive