Bought a new chess set today. My last one suffered an accident involving my younger brother and a second story window. Oddly enough, quite a few of my possesions have suffered a similar series of accidents. If the little fuck was not as cagey as he is, I would have killed him long ago. Well, that and the fact that I am the prime suspect...
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Fucking Christmas...
you know what? go out, right now, find yourself a nice fattened oxen and slaughter it. bathe in its warm entrails and viscous blood while dancing naked in the snow amid the conifers, all the while the scent of blood and death and pine and life flood your nostrils. let the bite of the cold remind you that you are alive and your...
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you know what? go out, right now, find yourself a nice fattened oxen and slaughter it. bathe in its warm entrails and viscous blood while dancing naked in the snow amid the conifers, all the while the scent of blood and death and pine and life flood your nostrils. let the bite of the cold remind you that you are alive and your...
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kitsune76:
My girl's still in Illinois.
Aloneness can take many forms. There are people around here who care, surely?
(hug)
Aloneness can take many forms. There are people around here who care, surely?
(hug)
am feeling particularly crazy tonight. horrible awful things are stalking me behind my closed eyelids. if i keep them closed for too long they will find me. they will come tearing out of my occular cavity and i will be blind and alone with the horrible things living inside my head.
i think i am going to go find a crowd and close my eyes...
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i think i am going to go find a crowd and close my eyes...
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kealli:
...and she said *you're* the one who's moved on.
mrsmead:
the other night i dreamt santa was getting fucked in the apartment next door
(ho......Ho........HO!!!!!!)
then i found a dolphin that had it's face ripped off but was still alive
santa killed it with a bladed shovel
i awoke with a strange desire to get thw whole scene tatted on my forearm
hope this provides some solidarity
(ho......Ho........HO!!!!!!)
then i found a dolphin that had it's face ripped off but was still alive
santa killed it with a bladed shovel
i awoke with a strange desire to get thw whole scene tatted on my forearm
hope this provides some solidarity
I haven't slept in a week.
Its the dreams mostly, but thats a lie. I can cope with the dreams.
Dreams of tranvestite corporate warlords in a future that will never be. A place that stinks of hot oil and rusting metal and where everything is composed of wires and scrap. A city that rests on a giants back, slowly moving over the land. Vampire...
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Its the dreams mostly, but thats a lie. I can cope with the dreams.
Dreams of tranvestite corporate warlords in a future that will never be. A place that stinks of hot oil and rusting metal and where everything is composed of wires and scrap. A city that rests on a giants back, slowly moving over the land. Vampire...
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kealli:
*motions for new post*
doctashock:
Are you like (me) from a parallel universe. I have the same obsession with writing and I wish more people would read my stuff. I need to get back in the habit of doing it more often. (Whatever happened to that book I was supposed to be finishing up, and that script I was supposed to start, and those songs that are halfway finished anyway?)
This journal entry is almost exactly like a two parter I wrote about a month ago. I'm almost tempted to ask you what we did with the car keys we lost. (You being me from a parrallel universe and all.)
Does this mean that if you are at the party on the 20th and we meet each other all of existence will be negated?
[Edited on Dec 14, 2003 1:29PM]
This journal entry is almost exactly like a two parter I wrote about a month ago. I'm almost tempted to ask you what we did with the car keys we lost. (You being me from a parrallel universe and all.)
Does this mean that if you are at the party on the 20th and we meet each other all of existence will be negated?
[Edited on Dec 14, 2003 1:29PM]
Autumn Love
The air smells of fading warmth, of coming cold, of growing things and dry rot.
It smells like autumn.
You know the scent. That smell that reminds you of every glorious fall day you ever experienced. When the air was the perfect temperature. When the wind blew just right through the dry and thinning leaves.
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The air smells of fading warmth, of coming cold, of growing things and dry rot.
It smells like autumn.
You know the scent. That smell that reminds you of every glorious fall day you ever experienced. When the air was the perfect temperature. When the wind blew just right through the dry and thinning leaves.
When you knew that now was the only...
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flux:
unfortunately, my phone line to the crypt of Science Fiction Masters is dead, or else i'd ring the man up and ask you. beats the fuck out of me, but i understand and sympathize with the frustration.
mrsmead:
see the hellboy trailer yet?
started my new job yesterday. i am beginning to learn that free espresso can be a very bad thing. i have now not slept since sunday night and am not feeling the slightest bit tired. my room mates want to know why my feet are constantly tapping.
is there such a thing as too much of a good thing? i just may find out.
however,...
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is there such a thing as too much of a good thing? i just may find out.
however,...
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kealli:
"too many of you have failed me and have failed yourselves."
thats really sad to hear.. for many many reasons.. and i'm not quite sure how to react.
thats really sad to hear.. for many many reasons.. and i'm not quite sure how to react.
acheron:
yes, i simply won't write them if i have no interest in the topic. i do my best to shove my personal interests into what's being asked of me. blah. gonna die though.
so i was sitting in my normal spot at the bar in the local coffee joint typing away this Halloween, when this very pretty girl comes up to me and starts talking to me about what i am writing and why i write. now being the ultra-suave, charming and capable social creature that i am... i just stared at her in dumbfoundment.
look, pretty girls...
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look, pretty girls...
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kealli:
i enjoy this line: I smile as the night catches me up.
~k
~k
mrsmead:
oh, shit!
happy birthday
isn't 22 so different and wonderful?!
you're not just getting older.........
soon we can rent cars......
bliss uopn bliss
madness......
happy birthday
isn't 22 so different and wonderful?!
you're not just getting older.........
soon we can rent cars......
bliss uopn bliss
madness......
so, i have gone ahead and finished chapter ten of The Adventures of Hunter Cartwright. many references to one of my favorite authors and yet more profanity from Stacia Brennar.
i like profanity.
anyway, have a secondary interview tomorrow at a local coffee shop. jobs are good, jobs with free caffeine are better. wish me luck.
am currently reading Raymond Chandler's Philip Marlowe series and...
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i like profanity.
anyway, have a secondary interview tomorrow at a local coffee shop. jobs are good, jobs with free caffeine are better. wish me luck.
am currently reading Raymond Chandler's Philip Marlowe series and...
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soeffinhappy:
Far from a hack. Your writing puts me in the scene, which is what every writer should aspire to do. I WILL check out the other episodes, although not tonight. Good luck.
alistairmather:
so... late morning slightly inebriated update:
spent the first two hours of Samhain's Feast in the most acceptable manner, thats right - The Rocky Horror Picture Show... i would fuck Tim Curry in that film, yaay corsets!!
was told i would look good in a corset by a girl tonight, but then i don't even have the chest for it... who knows, perhaps "...I would've been a sexy chick." in the words of Brody.
somehow i doubt it...
happy last day of the year all... go out and do something wicked with it... and beware the shadows after dusk...
spent the first two hours of Samhain's Feast in the most acceptable manner, thats right - The Rocky Horror Picture Show... i would fuck Tim Curry in that film, yaay corsets!!
was told i would look good in a corset by a girl tonight, but then i don't even have the chest for it... who knows, perhaps "...I would've been a sexy chick." in the words of Brody.
somehow i doubt it...
happy last day of the year all... go out and do something wicked with it... and beware the shadows after dusk...
A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to My Suicide
Its not about talent or being professional. Anyone who says otherwise is obviously an amateur or an idiot... and neither last long in this job. Its all about timing.
Timing and being really goddamn lucky.
For example, if that fat piece of shit Harvey hadnt taken that exact moment to try and pull a gun...
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Its not about talent or being professional. Anyone who says otherwise is obviously an amateur or an idiot... and neither last long in this job. Its all about timing.
Timing and being really goddamn lucky.
For example, if that fat piece of shit Harvey hadnt taken that exact moment to try and pull a gun...
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freakpirate:
I will get right on to downloading some of your recommendations. I look forward to it greatly.
See...Canada rules.
See...Canada rules.
synnove:
i really wish that i wouldn't mourn when people pass on. death always lingers around in my mind, the thought of it, those i've lost to it, when my time will come, ect.. i hate how death impacts me. but i do like the happy dreams that come from it.. the other ones though, i could do without. those just make me worry.
good luck on the interview tomorrow... i had mine today and a few hours later i received a call saying i got the job hopefully you will have the same luck as i.
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good luck on the interview tomorrow... i had mine today and a few hours later i received a call saying i got the job
hopefully you will have the same luck as i. [Edited on Oct 28, 2003 12:01AM]
so i went to the movies last night, by myself, after buying myself a drink at the pub next to my dorm. notice a trend?
anyway, i finally saw Kill Bill Vol. 1. the acting is over dramatic, the lines are pure pastiche, the violence is over done to the point of ridiculousness... it was fucking great. i loved awful Kung Fu movies as a...
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anyway, i finally saw Kill Bill Vol. 1. the acting is over dramatic, the lines are pure pastiche, the violence is over done to the point of ridiculousness... it was fucking great. i loved awful Kung Fu movies as a...
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impboy:
hello, alistair. i read your words in the depression boards today with interest. some things i agreed with, some didn't, and i'll post my statements there later. but still, i appreciated the thoughtfulness of your insights and thought i'd see what you had to say for yourself.
the pro-killer/suicide story sounds like a great premise, so i wish you luck with it. and don't be so hard on yourself - your storytelling will only get better with practice, and at 21, you needn't be in any hurry to become some big, huge artist right now. it all starts with making yourself and your friends happy. they're the first people who read you.
have not seen kill bill, yet, but will. i've made my uneasy aesthetic peace with tarantino. a person i know here in la did props for that film. he even has a katana autographed by him and uma thurman. god, he had beautiful weapons all over his apartment.
so anyway, you take care. get the words out.
PLURH,
)O->
the pro-killer/suicide story sounds like a great premise, so i wish you luck with it. and don't be so hard on yourself - your storytelling will only get better with practice, and at 21, you needn't be in any hurry to become some big, huge artist right now. it all starts with making yourself and your friends happy. they're the first people who read you.
have not seen kill bill, yet, but will. i've made my uneasy aesthetic peace with tarantino. a person i know here in la did props for that film. he even has a katana autographed by him and uma thurman. god, he had beautiful weapons all over his apartment.
so anyway, you take care. get the words out.
PLURH,
)O->
kealli:
motions for new journal entry 
I appreciate the support and comment hon. I wish I could do more to help you but I guess just being vaguely here and leaving comments might be enough. Well, a start.
keeps the mind sharp well kinda
i like breaking crayons