alisabeth

I've been trying to really get settled and start anew by January 13th. Most people recharge and restart January 1st, I wait until my birthday. This one's special too. It's the 20th. I've been here exactly 1/5 of a century, and it's been an event, for certain. I've been in Olympia a little over three months, and I'm mostly done reeling from the trauma of moving and starting over. They say it takes six months, so I'm using the next three to better my quality of life and relationship with my Self. Taking care of it -- mind, body, soul. Maybe when I reach that point, I'll be able to welcome someone else into it.

I've thought about the one really good relationship I had that lasted over a month. He was living with me. Didn't have a job or a car -- waiting for a phone call to join a ship's crew and head for the Bering Sea. He would clean up the house when I got home from work/school so when I came in the door it would be time to make dinner and relax. It was nice. I obviously don't have that now, so instead, I've vowed never to go to sleep in a messy house. I'll take the most comforting (non-human) aspect of the previous situation and inject it into my current daily life. So far, feels so good.