I just realized thatit's been nearly 12 years since I started Identifying as bisexual. wow. Long time... I was thinking about it because I was in this bar a week ago or so, that ten years ago was a gay bar that some of my friends worked in.
back then I was much more vocal, I wasn't willing to "pass" I'd read all this political stuff, and I was willing to argue with all the various anti-bi points of view I ran into.
17 year old me would not have been very impressed to meet 27 year old me.
However 27 year old me is much happier. Sex is better now for one thing, and I know myself aheck of alot better.
I don'tworry about what strangers assume about me so much any more. You never know what people are thinking.
I still identify as bi becasue I am attracted to some men and some women. THere is only one person in my life that I plan on having sex with for the indefinite future, and that person happens to be male.
"sell out." says 17 year old me. It's great not to worry about what people think.
Sexuality for me goes on in the mind as well as the body, and I have a very good imagination.
I'm more worried about being woman-positive, body-positive, sex -positive.
anyway, that's what I've been thinking about.
I'm definately a monogamy person though. However much I'd have liked to be non-posessive, trust is very important to me. I'm very fortunate to be in a loving, trusting relationship.
I used to get uncomfortable if I saw someone else I found attractive, but now I'm comfortable admitting that I look at people. There's nobody outside of my relationship that I would want to actually have sex with. Theoretically yes, but actually, it's just not worth the baggage.
okay. I'm running out of steam.
back then I was much more vocal, I wasn't willing to "pass" I'd read all this political stuff, and I was willing to argue with all the various anti-bi points of view I ran into.
17 year old me would not have been very impressed to meet 27 year old me.
However 27 year old me is much happier. Sex is better now for one thing, and I know myself aheck of alot better.
I don'tworry about what strangers assume about me so much any more. You never know what people are thinking.
I still identify as bi becasue I am attracted to some men and some women. THere is only one person in my life that I plan on having sex with for the indefinite future, and that person happens to be male.
"sell out." says 17 year old me. It's great not to worry about what people think.
Sexuality for me goes on in the mind as well as the body, and I have a very good imagination.
I'm more worried about being woman-positive, body-positive, sex -positive.
anyway, that's what I've been thinking about.
I'm definately a monogamy person though. However much I'd have liked to be non-posessive, trust is very important to me. I'm very fortunate to be in a loving, trusting relationship.
I used to get uncomfortable if I saw someone else I found attractive, but now I'm comfortable admitting that I look at people. There's nobody outside of my relationship that I would want to actually have sex with. Theoretically yes, but actually, it's just not worth the baggage.
okay. I'm running out of steam.
welntaod:
Yes...the 17 yr old me would walk right past me on the street & at most, would have snorted after the fact. Honestly, I couldn't be happier being myself at this age & headspace... I worked hard to earn it. Um....yeah! 