aliciakay

Well, I just finished Sex and the City I'm so sad. I think I feel way too much emotions sometimes. I've also notice that I try to hide it from myself. I don't like to feel anything to intensly. I just hope it doesn't all come out someday and ruin my life. I absolutly hate the fact that I don't even have 1 friend like the girls on SandC. Not one. It drives me crazy. I can't wait untill I have a friend who comes over for lazy bbq's and beer while our kids run around being crazy. All of my old friends are single and/or have no kids. Which is fine, but they still don't tend to come around. And all the mom's I see around town are just not my type. I know that sounds bad, but I just want a friend who gets me and likes what I like. Ryan comes home in 3 weeks. i don't think we're going to be able to make the trip to Hawaii. Even though It's practically free we still don't have the funds to make it. On the up side, the boys are doing better. Just some runny poop. I had to run out and get a shampooer. Just a handheld one. It works pretty good. When we moved in our carpet was brand new, it sure isn't now. It doesn't look too bad, but... anyway I've been away from the boys on my sandc marathon, so I better go. kisses