aliciakay

I'm making so many friends!!! I just hope I actually talk to you all. I hate having friends that never post anything. So, we're suppost to spend the night in our old town Vacaville. That's where our parents live. Not far at all. So, maybe we'll do something today? Probably not. Ryan and I did yoga today. A home video, I liked it. It stretched out my back really good. I had a bad night last night. Isnt' it wierd how night time always brings out your beasts. I guess it's the only time where I can really think about my life. It's so much easier when I don't think about it. The fact that Ryan cheated on me. We're working it out, but I still think about it. It effects my whole self image. I'm constatnly questioning if he finds me attractive. all that crap. One major thing, I really want to feel th love. You know, I want him to tell me how great I look. Come up to me and hug me or kiss me. Show me that he loves me, tell me. But, he never does. He says it's just not how he does things. But, I need that. I don't know if I need it so much that it's going to ruin things. I ecpecially need it now that I found out about what he did. But, he doesnt' seem to understand. Well, enough complaining. Sorry. I hope you all have fun today and tomarrow. Even if you're not in america celebrating the 4th. I hope we do something today. Peace Out G's