Making sure I was logged out of instagram I looked up Lila's page, @Lilagym. I think she works as a personal trainer and also does modelling. I was really shocked to see her account has been deleted. Immediately I thought it was because of me. My mind started racing through all the possibilities involving her deleting her social media account due to getting sick of...
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(HOLY SHIT. THANK GOD I BACK STUFF UP AS I GO IN MY GOOGLE DRIVE. SG DELETED HALF OF WHAT I JUST WROTE WHEN I HIT POST.)
My first date was on the last day of the school summer holidays in 1991. I had just turned sixteen a few weeks before. I was a bit of a late bloomer, I know. I was painfully shy...
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I have a sore mouth today. At the grand old age of 44 I decided it was time for me to do something I've always wanted to do for myself and finally get my teeth straightened. I missed my chance when I was at school and it was free on the NHS as my parents never bothered to make me go to the dentist. I...
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Ugh, I need to write 1667 words a day if I'm going to complete nanowrimo. It's only November 3rd and I'm struggling already. Ok, time to squeeze more words out of my head.
I was lying in bed last Saturday morning. I take my tablet to bed with me. I use it as an alarm clock. Sometimes I struggle to get off to sleep so...
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This is a stream of conscious brain dump of ideas for my nanowrimo project. As all my future entries will be. It wont be coherent or even remotely polished. I don't even know why I'm putting this out there in public. Anyway, with that public service announcement out of the way, welcome to the tangled balls of string that is my mind.
I would be...
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1. What song have you been listening to on repeat lately?
Various Cocteau Twins tunes, especially Evangeline, Ice Blink Luck and Frou Frou Foxes in Midsummer Fires.
2. Do you have any upcoming tattoos planned?
Nope.
3. What’s your Hogwarts house?
I'd like to say Ravenclaw but it's really Hufflepuff.
4. Describe your ideal home.
Ooh a nice old fashioned cottage with fireplaces in the...
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cocteau8:
Cocteau Twins! Hence my username!
alicerowena:
Yes! I was hoping you might notice :) This post was written by 'me' but most of my posts are me sketching out my nanowrimo ideas so please enjoy them but don't take them literally!
Over the years, every now and again I would google Mark just to see what he was up to. Not in a creepy, obsessive way. I often wonder what exes are up to. Most I parted with on good terms and they were reasonable, decent people. Mark seemed to be on the surface but was abusive in private. Nothing ever really showed up. He must...
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Ex-boyfriend, let's call him Mark, wrote a novel whilst he was at art school. He never let me read it because I was a big reader and could actually cast a critical eye over a novel. He sent it to a few publishers who rejected it. It was about a shy, nerdy art school boy's shy nerdy adventures at art school. His main character was...
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alicerowena:
Haha oh thank you! I am blushing! Well, there's more coming. I very much enjoyed your post earlier about your wild (compared to mine, I was very much a good girl) youth. I spent some time in hospital due to depression and anxiety in my late teens too. I missed a huge amount of school because of it and it was dealt with really badly. I didn't get a decent diagnosis until I was about 19 and able to take things into my own hands. Do you have any other blog recommendations on here? Most I look at haven't posted anything in about a year. By the way, nanowrimo stands for national novel writing month. I had to explain this to a friend the other day, I shouldn't assume everybody knows. You're supposed to write 1000+ words everyday in November and at the end if you have 50,000 words you are A Winner. There is no prize other than a feeling of pride and general wellbeing. To be honest my wits are a bit dulled these days, but if I can gets a decent amount of coherent ideas down and have some discipline I will be happy.
portrait_artist:
Hi @alicerowena, One lifelong lesson that I learned from being hospitalized was to try to appear normal as much as possible which is ironic because I am constantly disturbed by seeing conformism in others and especially in myself. As far as good blogposts I like what @libris writes. It is very down to Earth. The best writers have a serious and almost stern or stern expression on their face. (Don't You hate blanket statements like that?) I've looked at photographs of a lot of writers and seen the faces of local writers. I'll keep my eyes out for other writing that I think is good. There is nothing like Your nanowrimo blog entries. I look forward to seeing how the story develops. Yikes, poor Ray.
A letter plopped through my door the other day. I've not been in a great hurry to open my mail lately due to COVID, but I noticed this one had NHS stamped on it so I figured it was important. I gingerly picked it up and it was thick and I could tell there were leaflets inside it. I opened it with great curiosity and...
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The clocks went back here at the weekend so it is now pitch dark by about 5pm. I like my daylight, it keeps the black dog away. Black dogs are lovely, but there is a metaphorical black dog that has been chasing me most of my life that I try and stay a few steps ahead of. It gets particularly difficult when it is dark...
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