alice

i've known him for a long time now.....



how we met is kind of funny....



but how things turned out is pretty tragic....



i've loved him for so long, but i never really let him feel it. i still love him now, and i tell him all the time. i'll love him always....



he's supported me emotionally, artistically, sometimes financially, and otherwise.....



he's bent over backwards to get me where i needed to be....



he's always been there, even when i've totally fucked up. and he's always helped put the pieces back together....



he's not the evil person some have made him out to be. sadly, i'm sure i helped play a hand in that idea for a few people when i was really angry....



i haven't given him nearly as much of myself as he's given me....



i hate the way i took him for granted. i hate that i was never able to realize just how amazing he is and how much we really love each other until after i'd already caused so much damage. i hate that i didn't try harder. i hate that i ran off with someone who proved to be the worst thing i ever let into my life....



i've made more than my fair share of mistakes. and i've caused a lot of pain....



but for whatever reason, he's still able to love me...



i just hope he lets me show him that i can love him the way he wants and needs to be loved by me....



i love him with all my heart, even though the horrible quality of these photos may not accurately reflect that....