alicat13

i can't stop the tears streaming down my face. today has been an emotional day to say the least. every week i have to give myself shots... except for the fact that i can't do it myself. my dad has done it as so has bill. i have to psych myself up for it and then all of a sudden i start crying and can't even see anything because my eyes are all filled up with tears. a few minutes ago i had my fourth shot and it's really making me feel great, except the anxiety attacks i get once a week when i have to get the shot. it fucking hurts too. damnit it hurts so bad! hopefully one day i will be able to do it myself.

my eyes are all puffy still. i wish i could just put my life in rewind... or fast forward for that matter. i just don't want to be where i am right now. i'm fucking miserable and i hate crying all the goddamn time. i want to move away so people don't have to deal with me anymore.

my mascara is running.....